I don’t understand what’s happening to me. I’m not even a year out of college and I can’t bear the “real world.” Everywhere I go in this city (Chicago), I’m faced with ignorance, absurdity, annoyances, etc, etc. And I usually just sit there and try to rationalize that people are different and I need to be tolerant, but I was wondering what would happen if I started just saying what was on my mind.
Like yesterday, I was on the bus. And this fucking whore bitch ugly girl was a few seats in front of me yakking on her cell phone, and I swear, it was even worse than a movie in which a cell-phone-yakking-fucking-whore-bitch-girl is mocked. The back of her head was flipping all over the place as the air was filled with sentences such as “Yassssss! Like, I will TOTALLY make the reservations?!?!?! [Giggle giggle]” It irked me even more because the bus we were on is one which goes through two neighborhoods: an upper-class, affluent, elite college area, and a lower-class, projects neighborhood. And while I was going to college there, I was always mindful that it could easily be annoying to others if I were to flaunt my “privileged” lifestyle on mass transportation. Maybe this is just me. But this is just one example.
Another example is when fucking oblivious assholes walk seven people abreast on the sidewalk and don’t make any effort to move if others would like to get by.
So. Would it really be that bad if I were to tap that bitch on the shoulder and say “Why the fuck are you like this? Do you realize what an annoying bitch you are?” Or maybe I should just start kicking people in the head. Do any of you guys speak your mind regularly and tell people that they’re just being flat-out ridiculous?
Oh wait, here’s another. So I like to sit in this one Starbucks sometimes (yeah yeah sue me). And there’s this mentally disabled guy who is always there. Now I’d like to think I’m pretty tolerant and compassionate and whatever when it comes to disabled people. But what about when he starts talking to customers and won’t leave them alone? What about when he ATTACKS a customer because he accidentally touched his fanny pack? When is it okay to become intolerant?
Why can’t everyone in the world be as cool and mindful as me?
I was just thinking about composing a post about sidewalk dynamics. What, have I got my invisibility shield on? F’n so rude.
I am ten years out of college and these things do not bother me as much as they once did. I don’t even give the rude girl on the train a second look anymore. I don’t even hear her. I just feel sorry for her and her sorry ass pathetic life, be glad it’s not me.
It is true about the sidewalks, though. Just imagine huge groups who will walk 7 abreast and then abruptly STOP right in front of you. God forbid you actually work here while they’re taking pictures of skyscrapers.
I find it frightening that I 'm starting to identify with the wacko evil villians in various comic books and camp movies. You know, the ones that decide that the humans are just to pathetic to allow to live. . .
The only thought that sobers me is that no matter how intelligent, forthright, and ethical we think ourselves to be, we’re all pretty stupid, nasty, narrow-minded, and arrogant. Justify your position, then take a step to the right and look at it again though someone else’s eyes. . .
Maybe I should reword that and say “When is it okay to become ACTIVELY intolerant?” Maybe it’s never okay. Maybe it’s never okay to stand up in the middle of the train and throw one’s arms in the air and scream “What is wrong with the world?! Stop talking so loud! Move your fucking bags off the seat next to you! Lose some fucking weight! Use some deodorant! Get a car if you’re too slow to sit down before the train moves and you fall on your fat ass and concern everybody! Arrghhghghghhgh!”
Hehehehehe. Yeah I think more and more I understand why people “go postal” and stuff like that. I mean, I definitely have ethical problems with murder and things, but for people who don’t, the task of daily living can definitely take its toll…
I had to go to another city for a two week training course. Circumstances dictated that I leave my car behind, so I knew I would be taking public transportation while I was there.
I borrowed a walkman from a friend (for the bus rides), it probably saved a few lives.
I’m fairly tolerant, but there are some lines I don’t cross. Honestly, I think it’s right to become intolerant, with cause, where you no longer feel comfortable. I’ve never been accused of being a raging asshole because of this, but honestly, if someone is pissing me off, I’m not tolerating them already… they just don’t know about it yet.
I hardly speak my mind in these situations, perhaps because I’ve got some weird mental-verbal constipation going on, or I just don’t have the guts to break the social code that we live by.
