I’ve been fascinated by, or at least interested in twins ever since I can remember
There’s a couple of twins I know. A very long time ago, I might have been 10 (I’m 19 now) I was in a christmas party with them, we had fun and it was great, but afterwards and for about a day I had this feeling of being “gone”
a few years later I saw them again, it was fun again, and I felt “gone” afterwards again, this time it lasted longer
Four years ago I saw them again
This time the feeling lasted over two years, going smaller with time, until I saw them again this year which made it a worse
Well, they were here last night, and I avoided them completely because I knew they had a bad effect on me. I did not say anything to them and yet the feeling is very intense today
Intense might not be a good word for it though, seeing as with this “gone” feeling, everything isn’t (intense)
It’s quite hard to explain
it’s kind of like coming out of a nap but without the physical lazyness, just mental. Needless to say, it’s very strong after a nap
And it doesn’t mean I become stupid
To others I’m probably the same guy I was before this happened
But I feel different, like I’ve stopped being real
I noticed it kind of worked as a defense mechanism, I would feel much more gone at times I would instead get depressed
As far as I know, and because I don’t know anything about it, it’s a very very strange psychological state
It would be great if anyone knew of anything like it