Have you ever gone to a therapist and left thinking they were stranger or messed up than you?
I recently went to see a new therapist, and while we were talking, he asked for specifics memories from my childhood. I mentioned one that I have no feelings good or bad about and never did, and he was insisting this memory changed me for the worse. I totally get how you can have things happen and you dont think that they are affecting you 10 years later when they really are, but this guy was making some tiny thing that happened, seem like I was repressing some traumatic memory. He then had be hold these 2 small circles that were hooked up to a controller he was using to alternate vibrations in my hands which he said would move the memory from one side of my brain to the other. This is literally how this went…
*Therapist: Think about the memory.
Buzz(right hand)- Buzz (left hand) - Buzz (RH) Buzz (LH) and about 5 more times.
Therapist: now how do you feel about the memory?
Me: the same
Therapist: OK think about that.
Buzz(right hand)- Buzz (left hand) - Buzz (RH) Buzz (LH) and about 5 more times
Therapist: How do you feel now?
Me: the same.
Therapist: what Im trying to do is switch your shame with guilt.
Me: I am not ashamed.
Therapist: OK think about that.
Buzz(right hand)- Buzz (left hand) - Buzz (RH) Buzz (LH) and about 5 more times
Me: I dont understand how this works. If you feel guilty about something you can change it. i cant change the past so why would I want to feel guilty? The real issue I want to fix is how do I stop doing stuff when I know I am wrong but keep doing it.
Therapist: Im trying to change your relationship with your Mom.
Me: our relationship is fine.
Therapist: No the past relationship, and you change what your doing through therapy.
Me: OK… *
You think this was long? Imagine another 45 minutes of that.
Any one have similar stories?