Blah.
Maybe it’s because I’m a military brat and I’m still living in the same place. Been here six years, five in the same house.
Work is very frustrating. Three projects, all at deadends. All waiting on someone else’s input.
2.5 days of time off for the rest of the year.
Slept like crap last night, partially due to a new mouthguard I got last week to help with my temporal mandibular joint syndrome (TMJ) symptoms. My old nightguard was an upper-jaw one; I didn’t have to adjust to it at all. Slept like a rock the first time I wore it. But this new one goes on the lower teeth instead. It makes me drool like a madwoman and I spend the first 30 minutes of bedtime sucking spit while trying to fall asleep. In other words, I’m not used to it yet. All night long I woke up every thirty minutes.
I’m feeling sorry for myself. You know how on the personality tests they always ask you the questions about friends? “Would you rather have a few very close friends or a large circle of friends?” I’ve always answered “close circle” - today I feel like I have neither. I sponsored a party last Friday… people showed up, but none of the people I consider real friends. Saturday night we couldn’t get any of our “close friends” to go out to dinner with us… Today it feels like I have no friends.
I spent the weekend on my ass, playing Star Wars Galaxies. Poor doggie didn’t get to go on her long weekend walk we promised her months ago. And the choice to be lazy simultaneously sabotages weight loss.
This is all, of course, my own damn fault and I could change something to make it better.
Running when I get home tonight will be helpful. If only I don’t let myself talk myself out of it. I’m lazy to the core.
The “Beliefs” document I look at every day says:
I have embraced this statement in the past and I will again, but right now I have the blahs.
Blah.
