It’s past July 1 so I can talk about my life and my wife again. Here is another story about my tears that happened a few weeks ago.
I had been complaining to a flatmate every day about some aspect of the meals. e.g. that I like roast potatoes that are crunchy - that I couldn’t stand the silverside - and that the rice serving was too small. Then the next time I was saying something she got really upset. She said that it was rude for me to complain like that. She said I should just not say anything. I said that I was just giving feedback and also said she had responded positively to it in the past so I assumed it was ok with her. Her husband also backed her up. Anyway soon I started getting tears and then I found it hard to talk but I still talked fairly loudly. I also said that I always thanked her for her meals. I said that if there was something about my meals that she wouldn’t like I’d want her to say so. I wouldn’t want her to be eating something she hates and not say anything. I kept on talking for another minute or two even though I could hardly talk because of my crying. The husband touched me in a friendly way because he was uncomfortable about my tears. My wife came and was wondering what was going on.
Afterwards my wife said that she can’t really cry because she’s been through too much. I reminded her about a funeral we went to a while ago and she seemed to run off because she was starting to cry. I said it is ok for her to cry.
BTW about my job again - I was beginning to feel overwhelmed by a recent task and told my boss that I might take a really really long time. He said that was ok and that I’d become faster as I got used to it. I was getting really stressed out and told him and later I told him I was frustrated but he didn’t react negatively.