I’m coming close to graduation. It also wouldn’t hurt if I was employed right now. However, I’m afraid that I will not fit in the majority of workplaces, because of their fast paced, competetive, and rational culture. I have worked several (part-time) jobs in the past. I was miserable, and so were my employers and co-workers. The work was not worth the paycheck. I felt I had to be someone or something that I was not. I’m EXTREMELY spontaneous person. I don’t remember planning that often in my life. When I did plan, I rarely followed through. I’m also ten times more relationship-oriented than task oriented. When I was working, I’ve tried like everything in the book to try to be more productive. I’ve even resorted to drinking tons of energy drinks and experimented with supplements that mimicked stimulants. They did indeed boost my performance and productivity. But, aren’t those crutches? They also made me feel sick as hell.
Lately, I’ve been thinking that I simply may not be cut out for traditinal jobs or careers. However, I do want to be a bum or anything. Are they’re careers for people who are very easygoing/laidback, creative, people-oriented, and spontaneous?
I have a history of depression and ADHD, if this matters…