One last whiny post, just to get my thoughts out.
Cleo died early Monday morning, piled her into my truck, took Daisy, went to the shop. Dug a big ass hole, buried Cleo, Daisy stood there watching, did a couple of sniffs even though Cleo was wrapped up in a blanket. Stayed at the shop Monday night, went home Tuesday early since I just wasn’t getting anything done, and it was so…
Quiet.
There was no bouncing off the walls, nobody licking somebody else’s ears with this creepy annoying noise of pure annoying slobber. No 45 minute wrestling matches over who gets the best laying down spot. No shuffling and wrustling and sighing for the next 2 hours from the one that didn’t get the best laying down spot. No push and shove over who can closer to my computer chair, no MWROW, scratch, scratch, hiss over who can lick the cats butt first. It was depressingly…
Quiet.
Back to the shop on Wednesday, took Daisy, she’s in the dumps. Stayed at the shop Wednesday night, she’s stuck to me like glue, but jumpy, scared jumpy, since she was fixed she had never been a people person, that was Cleo’s job, but she has just turned into a real super chicken shit. She is all of a sudden scared of everything, right down to the toilet flushing, and even though she won’t leave my side to the point of crying at the bathroom door while I’m in there for 12 seconds, she’s been really not affectionate.
She’ll come for affection, wants it, but won’t in the slightest return it, I haven’t gotten a lick or a nuzzle all week. I’ve also never seen her so submissive, I’ve never seen her put her ears that flat back, straight back and plastered to her head. I can even give her a kiss on the nose with out having to brush my teeth, blow my nose and wash my forehead and part of my hair. That poor girl is in the dumps.
I’ve been taking her everywhere, work, beer store, grocery store, gas store, hardware store. When we get home she first goes to the sleeping hole that Cleo died in, then sniffs in the dog-majal(I think I mentioned their house is better than my house), then goes inside and lays down on Cleo’s end of the couch. Cleo took up that end as she got sicker since it was the least desirable, no pillows and it wasn’t the recliner, and no wrestling with a big fat dog for a comfy spot.
Poor Daisy, even the cat, who never really got along with Daisy is staying close to her, that cat ALWAYS knows when I’m in the dumps, and if she’s staying close to Daisy, she is definitely way further off than I am. Damn fat dog won’t even eat, I got her to eat some Burger and brown rice Tuesday and Thursday, but she really hasn’t eaten in almost 2 weeks. She is almost resembling a dog shape, not a beer keg shape, so I guess its not all bad, she’s fat and healthy, just depressed and confused, she’ll pop back.
I lost a beautiful little chocolate lab about 4 years back to parvo. That sucked, but it was easy, because when she was gone, I just had to deal with me. Now I have to deal with me, which is still easy, but I have the extra burden of another critter that I am responsible for, that I don’t know what the hell to do with. I almost wish she could talk. I think she’ll be a bit better in a few weeks, I’ll keep giving her the tennis ball test. I keep giving her a butt load of attention, she comes for it, but its not like she enjoys it, rub her belly and its like she don’t care, she used to get her legs up in the air and squirm around and make funny noises, now she is just laying there. (that sounds sick).
If anybody is wondering, Me, I’m fine, I’m a bit bummed, I’m fricken tired, I didn’t sleep for damn near a week, at least with a human you have 911. With a dog you have 22 38 and 45, none of which I have. I’m just glad the horrible part is over, I just hope I’m not going to hell for letting Cleo suffer longer than she needed to.
I’m going to give it about 3 weeks, see how Daisy is doing first, and probably get another pup. I can’t deal with the quiet, Daisy was always the down to earth one, the guard dog, I need another fruitloopy nut to bounce off the walls, make things interesting, 99% probably a lab.
Purely mundane and pointless, just needed to get some thought out.