smiles softly I think I can talk about this without crying, really.
My SO and I were just friends for a few months. We met online, him living in Australia and I in America, and chatted a lot about the game we both played and the message board we both frequented, plus his best friend in real life was one of my best online friends. A while into our chats, he was up at 5 a.m. (my 2 p.m.) at University, working on a project all night. I asked him if I should leave him alone to study and he replied, “Probably, but I’d rather you didn’t.” It made me blush.
A few weeks later I got a letter and a CD in the mail from him. We had exchanged addresses because he was supposed to be getting me a stuffed wombat. Anyway, I put the CD in the CD player before I even looked at the letter, being an avid music fan. I listened to it once, thought, “Wow, what great music!” It seemed like every song on there was either one of my old favourites, or a song that I’d never heard before but was destined to become a new favourite.
The CD hit repeat, and at about the fifth song I started to cry. I then opened the letter. The letter was long, and talked about each song and its significance about how he felt for me, or how he thought I viewed the world, or something he’d like to tell me. The letter ended with, “I think I love you, but until I can give you more than honesty and music, I’ll just be a friend who is here for you.”
The songs on the CD were:
- *Every Little Thing She Does is Magic - The Police
- *She’s So High - Tal Bachman
- *Killer Queen - Queen
- *Smooth - Rob Thomas/Santana
- *I Wanna Know What Love Is - Foreigner
- *The Logical Song - Supertramp
- Romeo & Juliet - Dire Straits
- *Here Comes the Sun - The Beatles
- *You’re Only Human (Second Wind) - Billy Joel
- Wishing it Was - Eagle-Eye Cherry/Santana
- *What About Me? - Moving Pictures
- *Hide in Your Shell - Supertramp
- *Everybody Hurts - REM
- *Livin’ Thing - Electric Light Orchestra
- Already Gone - Powderfinger
- *Patience - Guns ‘N’ Roses
- *There She Goes - Sixpence None the Richer
- The Sweetest Thing - U2
The * means they were songs that he felt he could sing every word to me and mean them - not necessarily about me, but about life. The others are there because they were good songs and some of their lyrics fit his feelings for me.
The side of the CD reads, “So you can never forget how wonderful you are.”
Two follow-up CDs have been sent to me since then, one with the incredible legend, “I’m so lost in you … I’m not sure I can ever stop loving you … If you don’t mind, I won’t”, but the first one is by far the most sentimental object I own. I had no idea how he felt for me until I got that CD. I can’t listen to it without crying, I can’t hear any of the songs on the radio without crying. It was just the sweetest and most wonderful thing anyone has ever done for me …
Damn, here I am crying again. I love him so much. sighs softly