For several months now, I’ve been very ticked off at the recent way life has managed to screw me over. Now, I’m generally a “Keep my troubles to myself” type, and get over grievances pretty quick and get on with my life, but this one has been eating away at me and appears to continue doing so for quite a long time.
Therefore, I’ve decided for the sake of my mental health to get the monkey off my back and then kick it in the head several times.
PART 1: HIGH SCHOOL -
I didn’t like high school. I went to a small rural school and course selection was limited. I was bored, unchallenged, and uninterested. Accordingly, my average dropped from all but perfect in my freshman year to about 3.5 for graduation. Still, not too bad, right?
PART 2: COLLEGE ADMISSION -
Determined not to have the same problems in college, I happily applied for the largest and most prestigious public university in the state. Everyone I knew, including the guidance counselor, assured me that with a 1312 SAT and a 32 ACT, I was a shoe-in for wherever I applied.
My future looks good!
PART 3: GRADUATION -
I fell as 7th in class ranking, giving me the privelage of being an ‘Honor Graduate.’ For all practical purposes, I was considered one of the “achievers” of the school. More fuel for my ego. At some point before graduation, my acceptance letter comes. I was not accepted.
Well, to be fair, I was sort of accepted. I have to spend my freshman year in a lesser university; if I maintain a 3 point average, then I’m automatically guaranteed admission to my original choice for my 2nd year.
PART 4: COLLEGE
This did little to please me. Why in the HELL was I not directly accepted? What the FUCK were they thinking? My transcript was perfect! After a few days of steaming, I finally believed I had found the answer.
It is Texas state law that the students in the top 10% of every graduating class are guaranteed admission to any state college. There were 63 people in my class. I graduated 7th in my class. Do the math. Yeah, now I was plenty mad at myself for not trying just a LITTLE harder, but then I thought about the situation in a larger school, where I would have received this benefit, had I gone there.
And I suddenly realized by cruel personal experience, this law is not a help to college-bound students! It basically sticks a cap on the number of students from smaller schools, where (at least in my area) the percentage of A students was much higher than in the larger schools, from getting into highly selective universities. Why can they not just let college’s set their own standards? I am POSITIVE that I had a higher average than many who fell under the top 10% range, and even if not, my test scores were exceptional!
The state law, however, acknowledges no other standard other than flat GPA scores, a horrendously inaccurate (in my opinion) indicator of college readiness. The university I applied for is known for being quite a bit overcrowded, thus it seems to me be very likely that they accepted only the students that the state MANDATED they accept, ignoring all other candidates, even if they had a better overall transcript.
Now, I concede a few things.
One, that I am jumping to conclusions, particularly on why the college did not accept me, and…
Two, that my bitching about this is just to deflect my own personal failure of getting into the college of my choice.
However, I had been led to believe (even by professionals who have worked with colleges and high school students for years), up to the day that the letter arrived, that I had a damn impressive transcript and would almost certainly not be rejected.
Well, anyway, here I am. A freshman on a campus that after a few weeks of acquaintance, I’ve decided that I absolutely LOATHE and it appears that I will miss out for another year on the college experience I have been looking forward to for years.
sigh I guess I’m done now. Tell me if the monkey twitches, and I’ll come back to finish him off.