Mom and Dad are both fairly private people who don’t post on social network, so I can’t really write this on my Facebook account. So I thought I’d lean on my fellow Dopers to go through my thoughts and have a little place to chat, as time and energy allow.
Some of you are aware that my mother has colon cancer. She was diagnosed at stage 4 just about a year ago. It was an aggressive cancer - she had a clean colonoscopy three years prior.
She was on an immunotherapy treatment every two weeks, which worked really well. Her oncologist always told her it works great until it doesn’t. We’ve reached that point. This past Monday, her oncologist told us it was time to stop the treatment, and go to hospice. Her tumor markers (CEA and CT-DNA) were both increasing, and the recent CT scans shows the liver metastases were all growing noticeably.
The last few weeks, she’s been very tired. She went from walking on her own, to using a walk, to needing me to push her in a wheel chair to get to her appointments. She fell on Monday trying to get to the bathroom, and we spent many hours in the ER before her regularly scheduled doctor’s appointment.
She lives with my father, but he has his own issues, including some dementia. We arranged for aides to be at the condo 24 hours a day, in shifts, as a short term solution. Hospice did their intake and exam. We had been looking at moving the both of them to assisted living, but we can’t do that now. Not fair to Mom to move her right now. Not fair to Dad to make him leave his home of 20 years at the same time he’s losing his wife.
The family (both parents, my sister, and me) usually gather at my house for Thanksgiving. Yesterday, I took all the food to their condo instead. Mom hadn’t been out of bed all day, and had no solid food. She did have about three quarters of a protein shake, but that’s it.
We called the hospice care team, and they sent an emergency nurse out for an evaluation. They determined that she needs to be in crisis care, which means they provide a bedside nurse 24 hours a day, and palliative care as needed. There was a little hiccup getting the first nurse out last night, because, well, it was Thanksgiving. But around 10:30pm we finally got one, and we was able to give her some morphine.
Today, we have a full time live-in aide starting. That’s our long term solution to handle Dad, which means he won['t have to move. She’ll have to make sure he eats appropriately and help oversee his medication. I’m taking over for Mom on managing his medical appointments, although I hope to have the aide handle the transportation so I can just meet them at the doctors. And for some simple appointments, I may not need to go at all.
The condo has two bedrooms, but right now the second room is an office with computers for both parents. I’m going up there (about 15 minutes drive, not a big deal) this afternoon to convince Dad that it needs to happen, and start moving things. My sister will join too.
It’s been a long week. The next few days are likely to be long and painful as well. But we’ll do what we have to do. I was supposed to do my yearly traditional Disney trip starting tomorrow, and I’m cancelling that. One of the nurses yesterday told me that it’s possible Mom is going to plateau at this level and linger for a bit, but more typically, will pass in 3-6 days.
I’ll update as I have time and energy.