Which I would argue, I was doing. Starting and stopping every 10-20 feet, while an incredibly valuable skill, doesn’t actually give me a feel for how my hand is supposed to pseudo-“lock” the throttle in a quarter roll-on (so moderate-low RPMs in gear 1–and this is the formerly broken wrist hand which has never regained full roll-on motion (i can hit about 80 degrees from flat)) while messing with friction zone which is supposed to kick in at about 1/4" from all the way squeezed but honest to the FSM, the Friction zone felt like it was closer to 1/2" to 3/4" (Suzuki TU250X, if anyone is familiar). Honestly, I wish the MSF would understand that when someone says they have NO riding exerience, then having an instructor (there were 4 present) set us newbies on outer cones while allowing those with some experience to move at their own pace on inner cones, even if it meant paying triple to grasp a basic skill. Simply put, I was expected to keep pace with a guy who has been riding for over 10 years without a license, a girl who failed out the same way I did (who went and bought a bike to practice with for several weeks), a girl who rode dirtbikes and ATVs at a kid, and several students who at the very least had dirt bike/moped experience from childhood, none of which I possess.
I honestly have nothing against higher CC bikes, except I’m already sore from power-walking a 250cc bike for 2 hours, and I don’t really have anyone I know who can help me learn the subtleties of the friction zone, and so on. Maybe I’m out of shape. Maybe job stress is, even a week later, getting in the way, of melding the various components together smoothly and coherently. But you and others keep pushing this “don’t get a 250cc displacement bike, get a 500-650cc bike”, and honestly I’m confused as to why. Better friction zones? Throttle more forgiving? Not much difference in weight?
Unless I misread, Ohio requires re-testing every year for your temps. This isn’t a problem. I passed the temp license within an hour of studying.
Expensive in the context of needing to buy a good quality helmet (probably priority #1), full fingered gloves, comfortable riding boots (mine were so thickin the soles, I couldn’t tell the difference between the foot rests and the gear shift/right-rear break pedal) and a vented cycle jacket on top of long pants, which can add anywhere from a couple hundred bucks to $2000 easily, on top of a $1000-$5000 investment for a bike (used to new) for the small displacement engines. Expensive as an airplane? Not even close, I’ll happily grant you.
My next goal is to buy a cheap bicycle, make sure I’m NOT having balance problems (what the instructor initially thought was my problem–it was’t, but I won’t rule it out, entirely), work on stress reduction techniques, and continue to exercise to attempt to “right” my brain to be able to handle stress appropriately. Then, I’ll probably search for private tutors who can ride a cheap bike to someplace safe to practice, and practice till I get the basics down. The MSF may be for everyone, but clearly it isn’t for me.
All 3 of you make good points. Bi5h0p, I’m aware that I’m in greater danger on roadways when on a motorcycle versus my 4x4 jeep. My sister, an ER/Trauma nurse calls motorcyclists who ride without ATGATT “donorcyclists”. Some training courses in fact teach me to accept that I am a SMIDSY–"Sorry Mate I Didn’t See You There). Invisible to most drivers. When I drive, having read up on motorcycling, I do my damnedest to safely watch out for them because I know other drivers won’t. I accept that risk of invisibility, provided I learn and am comfortable in my skills enough to offset any risk, but I thank you for your warning.
jz78817, like it or not we in the USA live in a largely suburban/rural society. Getting a driver’s license IS absurdly easily here in the states compared to other countries. We have people driving at absurdly drunk/drugged levels, on drug dosages that can level a horse/cow, in some cases. We so far don’t have much in the way of detecting anything other than alcohol. Bi5sh0p’s concerns are, if a tad doom-and-gloom, at least somewhat reasonable. They are not enough to keep me from trying, even if I have to find a way to change up my strategy for learning.
Magiver, thank you, for both the kind words, but also the challenges to my way of thinking. I won’t rule out a larger displacement bike, but I don’t quite get why larger displacement may = easier to learn.
Simply put, after this weekend, I’ve learned two major things. One, If I don’t get my stress (from all sources, including my job) under control, I’ll fail at this. That may mean a hiatus from learning to ride and enrolling in Yoga or some form of mindfulness meditation to calm the fuck down and stay that way, since stress is my enemy. Two, while useful for many, structured classes like the MSF courses just aren’t for me, so I have to find a way to get a bike to practice on safely until I’m confidant I can control it. That may mean paying someone to ride the bike to a deserted parking lot so I can practice once or twice a week (honestly wish I’d gotten the tow package on my Jeep now).
Despite the risks, dangers, problems inherent in motorcycle riding, I don’t think I should give up on this. I don’t WANT to give up on this. But if one strategy for learning something fails, repeatedly, it may be time to sit back and consider a new way of thinking about learning how do to what I want to do.