I was raised as a liberal Christian. Throughout my childhood, and beginning of adolescence I was very involved in my church. The people were kind, and there was a strong emphasis on love for everyone, and respect and tolerance of other’s beliefs. This resonated with me, and I was happy, to the point that I considered the ministry as my calling. So, as I got older I read the Bible, of course, but the older I got the more questions I had. I began to see things in a very different way. Noah’s Ark had always been a cute little children’s story, the kind of thing the wallpaper in the nursery had. But now I thought about all the people that would have perished horribly if such a story was true. But of course, I saw that it wasn’t true, and this bothered me also. All of the Old Testament was this way to me, and I found myself rejecting the entire thing as anything more than tribal stories from the foundations of my own faith. They did not represent the God of love that I worshipped, but I had never been a Bible literalist, so I chucked them.
Then I started to have problems with the New Testament. First of all, Jesus talked about Hell, and how He was the only way to Heaven. I didn’t believe that either. How could God send anyone to Hell? It was just cruel, and wrong. So, I ignored that part too. No Hell, ok. And a lot of what Paul wrote bothered me too. Of course women could speak in church; my minister was a woman, and she was wonderful. Revelations was creepy, too. But, Jesus didn’t say any of that stuff, so I felt perfectly fine about dis-believing it.
So, skipping ahead a bit, I found myself at a point where I had sort of glossed over everything Jesus didn’t say, and even a few things he did. But I still considered myself a Christian (and, it should be noted, I was still very much welcome in my church at this point). But, one day I had a sort of revelation. If Jesus was the Son of God, and all these wonderful things, He pretty much had to be infallible. I couldn’t just discount it. And if he WAS all those things, why didn’t he speak out more on the things that were important to me, in more forceful terms? Why didn’t he say, “Women who love other women, and men who love other men are ok. And women are as capable as men in every spiritual capacity, they are equal. And blacks and whites are equal, and slavery is wrong,” and so on and so on. I mean, he was God! He had to have known this stuff! You can’t say, “Oh, it was the time He lived in,” because he was timeless! Jesus’s message was revolutionary, in it’s time, but a message from God should be pretty much eternal, I thought.
So, I reached a point where I realized I respected Jesus, and found him to be a good person, and a spiritual teacher. But in my studies of other religions, I saw that Jesus was hardly the only one. There are lots of wonderful teachers, some of whom had more complete philosophies than Jesus did! I felt like Jesus could have reached that point in his ministry, but he was killed, which is very sad. And I think we can benefit from reading his teachings; they aren’t the be all end all, but what they say has merit. But I no longer considered myself a Christian, because I did not exclusively follow the teachings of Jesus. So, finally, my question:
For liberal Christians, what is different for you? What philosophy makes Christianity the thing for you? I feel like most liberal Christians have feelings similar to these (at least the ones I’ve known) but stop short of dropping their faith. Can you explain why that is?