The short answer would be: me
The long answer is that I have been successful. I’ve raised happy children in a happy family. (The joke is that I wanted to show my parents it could be done.)
Now, it is time for a new goal and I start school afresh in 4 weeks.
However, I am still an idle bastard-ess, too. Some things never change.
Tooldom makes me puke.
Only time. I’ll let you know next year.
Beer.
Other people.
Wow.
There sure are alot of idle bastards and bastardettes around here.
Funny, how we are all dopers.
huh.
Complete and utter lack of self-confidence, self-esteem, self-image, self-worth and everything else “self.” As I put it: What am I? Fucking invisible?
I simply don’t believe I can do anything and if I can do it, it’s something so totally insignificant that it’s not worth anything.
You do know show tunes, that says something to me!
I picked a job that’s meaningful over one that’s high paying. You’ll never see a rich nurse but I go home from every shift at the hospital feeling good.
Sorry to double post but I feel uncomfortable about being potentially misleading – I’m a year away from being a nurse but I’m currently a nurses’ aide at a medium sized hospital and get just as much patient contact as anyone but a surgeon :).
The Man! Man! He’s keeping me down!
OK its actually idle-bastardness here as well, I thought I was the only one.
Personally I prefer to work bastardly hard for a short period of time to get the work done then goof off the rest but apparently thats not acceptable and unless you’re constantly working (at a slow pace) its not acceptable by the powers that be, even though the work output is actually the same…
“If at first you don’t succeed…lower your standards.”
-Tcat
The unknown, like all the professionals say.
**What stands between you and untold success and riches? **
…my newfound addiction: SDMB. Just finished a long weekend wherein I had planned to finalize the design of a side project (and potential money-maker) I’ve been tooling with for some time. Didn’t even touch it as replying to lekatt was top priority.
Seriously, QuickSilver I must be your evil twin (or vice versa) - you described my feelings of late to a tee. I guess low risk tolerence with having kids is a big factor, reduced energy with age (although I’m not that old), or whatever. But “idle bastard” fits in a way that disturbs and embarasses me.
About 5-6 years ago I thought I had broken the cycle. I had a new job, I had energy to spare, many simultaneous fulfilling projects (both at home and at work). Then about 3 years ago, crash (details elided) - and idle bastard mode returns, getting worse day by day.
I’ve been flirting with the idea of drastic career change, but I’m too comfortable/complacent/idle. Unless I can shake how I feel right now, I know I’ll never get off my ass and make it happen.
Life coach? Saw the Penn & Teller: Bullshit! episode, so I’ll not be throwing my money in that direction.
In truth, each step forward in my life has been the result of a collapse of the status quo - company I work reorganizes me out of a job, for goes bankrupt, or somesuch - so I’m forced to find another job - each time a better one. Maybe I’ll get lucky and get fired 
I do.
I’ve deliberately chosen to live my life in a fashion not calculated to give me untold riches, power and influence.
I deliberately chose a career that not only allows but encourages my idle bastardy leanings. I find I’m happier that way. My life is less filled with stress. I sleep better. Also I’m less of a raging psycho hose beast. Que sera sera.
Points one and two.
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Welcome to the cluster. 
By life coach meant more of a no bullshit lay it on the line type . Somebody who’s good at motivation at a very logical and realistic level, not the insense buring and crystal hugging, meditative crap.
Somebody who’ll help me put a big picture schedule together and hold me accountable to it.
Inertia.
I loathe my dead-end cubicle monkey job, and yet I still go there every day. (Well, not today, I am on VACATION.)
I’m trying, I swear. Check back in five years.
**What stands between you and untold success and riches? **
Apathy.
No, I’m not kidding.
Apathy.
leadership Skills (or total lack thereof)
I try, I really do, but while I can back up anyone and come up with great ideas when Im following them or on my own, as soon as I have to deal with a group of people I freeze and let someone else take over.
Dislike of working in a team also. Give me something to do on my own and Il finish it in no time. Give me the same thing with a group, and it takes forever and I slack off.