My bike.
It was beautiful. It had ruby-red paint on it with just a little sparkle. It had a little red-and-white basket that attatched to the front of it and a bell on the handlebars. My cousin gave it to me when I was five.
It was a little too big for me. When I was seven, the kids in my neighborhood taught me to ride it without training wheels. Every day after school, all the kids would come out… The oldest girl would hold onto the bike and then let go the way dads do in commercials and all the rest of the kids would run along the sides to help me keep my balance or sit on the lawn and cheer… I finally got it the day before the big block party and spent whe whole party riding my bike.
I, like many little girls, was obsessed with horses. I wanted desperately to take riding lessons, but had to settle for reading horse books and pretending I had a whole stable full. I pretended my bike was a horse. I named it Ruby. I was so attatched to Ruby that I find it hard right now to think of Ruby as “it” instead of “her”
I loved Ruby immensely. I would spend hours riding around the block.
I grew, and all my friends started getting fancy bikes. Ten-speeds and mountain bikes. But I wasn’t jealous. I got out my dad’s tools, raised the seat and hanlebars on Ruby, and rode her proudly round and round the block. Who needs more than one speed? my bike was the best.
I grew more and raised the seat and handlebars again, then grew even more. My mom told me I was too big for the bike. I was. I was definitely too big to still be pretending I was riding a horse (but if I were small enough and had that bike back, I’d probably still pretend.) but I didn’t care. I loved Ruby. She was my favorite object in the world. At one point, my mom even begged me to let her get me a new bike. I didn’t want a new bike. I wanted people to leave me alone and let me ride Ruby.
Then one day my mom told me my bike was stolen. I cried.
She confessed to me later that she had “stolen” it and thrown it away because she knew I’d never give it up willingly.
I really wish I still had it. Even if I couldn’t ride it. Even if time would take its toll and make it too crappy for my kids to ride it. I don’t know what I’d do with it… probably put it in the basement. But it would be nice to be able to see it there and just to have it. I do my best to keep sentimental packrat-ness to a minimum, but god I loved that bike.
also, when I went to Disney World with my dance company, we all got T-shirts and I don’t know what happened to mine. It never made it back from florida. Also, we always got t-shirts for each year’s studio show. I took mine off during class one day and put it with my stuff. The problem with everyone at the studio owning the same t-shirt is that people will sometimes both wear it to the same class. When I got out of class, i couldn’t find my t-shirt and several weeks later, while lamenting the loss to my friends, discovered that one of the guys in the class had gotten home to discover his studio t-shirt was size small and he had probably picked mine up. He promised to bring it back, but never did. I really liked that shirt.