In a box in my junk room I have 78 back issues of *A+ Incider * magazine, a magazine devoted to the Apple II computer. I found them at a yard sale years ago, bought them for a couple of bucks, and have had them ever since. I’ve had them maybe six years.
I can’t bring myself to throw them out.
They’re perfectly useless, except for a certain nostalgic feeling I get when I browse through them and remember the excitement I felt back in the Good Old Days when I got my first IIc and Apple ruled the PC universe. Other than that, they’re just taking up space in an already overflowing apartment.
But I can’t throw them out. Something horrible will happen if I throw them out. Lightening will strike me. I’ll get hit in the head by a meteor. Western civilization will collapse. Something.
I don’t even have a working Apple II any more. All I have is a IIGS emulator on my Mac. The actual machines I threw out without a tear.
Yet still the magazines stay.
Every time I tell my self firmly that I simply must throw them out because I have absolutely no use for them whatsoever, and neither does any other civilized human being, I can’t do it. I pick up the box, head for the door, and somehow or other the box ends back in my junk room where it was before–although once I did get almost halfway to the dumpster before turning back.
A thousand years from now, archaeologists will dig up my coffin and find a skeleton clutching the tattered remains of 78 magazines devoted to an obsolete, defunct computer. And I don’t understand why any better than they will.
Do you have anything like that? Is there some white elephant, some perfectly useless piece of junk taking up badly needed space in your life? Have you ever dragged your collection of old, tattered comic books or beat up old teddy bears almost to the dumpster in fear and trembling, only to turn back at the last moment with a tremendous relief?
Who else has a perfectly needless and cumbersome possession, some object you can’t give even the wildest half-baked rationalization for keeping, which you simply can’t bring yourself to toss out or give away?