Greetings oh wise ones,
Let me start by saying that I don’t have a ton of weight to lose. I’m 5 foot 5, I had triplets 18 months ago, and I’ve been working hard to get rid of the weight. Although (ahem), I’m actually lower than I was before I got pregnant, so I can’t really blame the triplets for my weight gain as much as I blame the many many Quarter Pounders I used to consume when in the throes of a junk-food addiction.
Suffice it to say, I don’t eat junk food anymore, I don’t even crave it, it upsets my stomach anyway. So that’s all good. I’ve never in my life exercised for a prolonged (read: more than 3 weeks) period, because every form of exercise I’ve ever tried I’ve hated with a burning passion.
In the past my weight-loss diet of choice has always been to basically eat as little as possible, which does get results but ends up with me being skinnier, flabbier, weak, hungry, and miserable, and quickly regaining the weight.
So. About 6 months ago I accidentally started doing cardio-kickboxing. (I joined the Y, went nervously to the posted “Lite” workout, realized I was in the very very very wrong room, tried to leave, and was intimidated into staying by the instructor). Much to my surprise, I liked it. It was fun. It kicked my butt, but it was really great for getting out aggression and stress, and it wasn’t boring “grapevine left!” “grapevine right!” aerobic-Jane-Fonda type classes. This was cool, this was aggressive, this was a hell of a workout.
So, for the past three months, I have been dedicated to taking off the 30 pounds I need to lose to get to my goal weight of 120. I started at 149.8 (yes, my scale is anal) and dropped about 6 pounds in the first month, 2 in the second month, and 0, yes ZERO in the third month). I have been doing the cardio-kickboxing three times a week, an hour of cardio-kickboxing plus 30 minutes of abs and pushups. I do an hour of strength-training twice a week, once with a personal trainer and once on my own. I do abs every night. In addition, I am watching my food intake, and aiming for around 1500 calories a day, so that I don’t eat up the muscle I am putting on. Oh, and yes I drink water as much as I can.
Now, this past month the scale WILL NOT MOVE. 141. 142. 142. 143. 141 . You get the idea. On the good side, something is happening because I’ve dropped from a slightly-tight size 14 to a comfortable size 10. I know this matters more than the actual pounds on the scale, but I have a slight build and I know that I am not supposed to be this heavy. Plus there is much jiggle remaining.
I just feel like I’m stuck. I’m probably in the best shape of my life fitness-wise, and cardio-wise, and muscle-strength wise. Am I just shallow in wanting to be at a more normal to thin weight for my height? I wasn’t overweight until I turned around 25 (I’m 32 now) and starting eating for comfort and eating lots of junk food, when going through infertility, reasons don’t matter much. Most of my life I have been 115-120 and quite happy there, not too thin. I have very thin wrists and ankles, and always measure in the “small frame” category.
I need help, I am afraid I will get so frustrated at the scale not budging that I will stop exercising, even though I like it, and will just put back on the 8 or so pounds I lost in the first six weeks. What can I do to jump-start my body off of this plateau it seems to be happy at? Personal stories are welcomed. Because I am not very overweight and don’t have 100 pounds to lose and am not in plus sizes, I have gotten pretty useless/negative responses when I try to get help from a weight-loss board (“I just wish I was 140”, “watch out or you’ll be anorexic girl”, “just be glad you’re not 300”).
I can’t throw my scale away, it just won’t happen, we like each other. If only I could just see 139 instead of 141. It’s a small change but it would be huge psychologically for me. So, any tips for a boost off my plateau? help?
thanks so much in advance! sorry to be so long. I’m nervous about posting all this so I tend to babble.
Karen