I get so sick and tired of Good fucking Samaritans. When I tell you “no” in response to you asking me if I need help with what I’m doing, I mean it. It’s not ok to simply chuckle at my answer and just go ahead and “help” me anyway. It’s not ok to fucking ignore me like I didn’t say anything and “help” me anyway. It’s definitely not ok to say “well I’m going to help you anyway” and “help” me anyway (yes, this happened).
I deal with this shit day in and day out and for the most part, I just let it bounce off me. But two recent interactions I’ve had with people out in public have really irritated the fuck out of me. There is a significant percentage of Good Samaritans who offer help to disabled and/or who they simply view as below them who do so not for the disabled person but for themselves. So they can reassure themselves that they are a “good person”, or simply for a smug sense of satisfaction.
I was visiting a business establishment yesterday and in order to get to the front door, I had to travel along a short sidewalk in front of the business. As I had just started out, I saw a guy who I had seen come out of the business as I was pulling in. He saw me as I passed by on the sidewalk and yelled out “Do you need a hand there?” I tried to be as emphatic as possible while remaining polite. I shook my head and waved my arms in a criss-cross “no” as well as said “No, thank you.” Well that should be adequate, right? No, this guy shut his car door and started jogging towards the door (the door that I was only a few feet from).
Goddamn it, I thought. Why does this shit happen? I told him I didn’t need help with the door as clearly and firmly as possible. It didn’t faze him at all. As i saw him approaching the door, I repeated myself, only quite a bit louder and more urgently. “I said no man, I don’t need help! No, stop, please!” His amazing response: “Well, I gonna give it to you anyway.” :eek:
At this point he had made it to the door and I stopped just in front of him. “I just want to make it perfectly clear that you are not doing this for me. You are not interested in making any aspect of my life easier. I told you repeatedly that I did not want or need your assistance, yet you continued. You are only doing this to make yourself feel good about yourself. It’s not me you’re doing this for, it’s you.” At that point I just wheeled thru the door and that was it.
Fast forward to today and I had a similar encounter while working out at the gym. I needed an incline bench to do the exercise I wanted to do and there was this guy picking up weights from the closest incline bench to me. I asked him if he was still using the bench and he said he wasn’t. So I said thanks and I started moving the bench around just a bit so that it was in the desired position. Keep in mind I was only rotating the bench, not even moving it to a different floor spot. If I had been left to do this unencumbered, it would have taken me less than 20 seconds to complete.
Well, the guy who had been using the bench and was now just over at a flat bench right next to me leans over to ask me if I need some help. As he asked this, he started moving forward as if he was anticipating a certain “yes.” Of course, I recognized this and hurriedly told him “No Thanks.” Well that didn’t faze him and he continued on and I had to basically shout three times in quick succession, “I said NO!”
But why?? Why do I have to resort to angry tones of voice just to be listened to? Why can’t I just be heeded the first fucking time?
I can only hypothesize as to why these people do what they do. But sometimes I wonder if these people think my declining their offers of help is because I am too proud and stubborn to tell them yes but I really do need the help. Or because I don’t want to be rude? I don’t know but sometimes I just hate people. I know it’s an irrational feeling, I mean, I’m only interacting with a tiny tiny fraction of people but fuck. Why?