Trying to put my thoughts together and make sense of things is nearly impossible, I have watched and listened all day to what has happened in New York and Washington and can barely make sense of things.
I feel sick to the core of my being at the events of this day, I will never forget this day for as long as I live although right now, I wish it would just stop. It has been all I could do today to keep myself together and there have been times when I have failed and simply broke down and cried.
I watched the news this morning in disbelief, I wasn’t thinking so much that America was under attack but that thousands of people just like you and me had just been murdered. I saw scenes of people jumping from the top of the WTC before the buildings collapsed in a mountain of dust and debris.
I rejoiced when our fellow Dopers checked in to say they were safe. Although I don’t often express it, I have grown quite fond of many people here. I felt selfish in my joy as there are countless mothers, fathers, and children are mourning the loss of their own beloved. Four hundred firemen gave up their lives in an attempt to save people they never even knew and left behind many family members. Like true heroes they answered the call, the cost of that heroism was their own blood.
I came home tonight and hugged my children knowing that there are hundreds and perhaps thousands of children who are still waiting for a mom or dad who is never coming home.
Those who have celebrated this as a victory are beyond contempt. To celebrate the death of another human being simply because they believe or live differently is wrong.
The story keeps coming and miraculously, there are people calling from the wreckage with those damned cell phones we like to bitch about so much. They are alone in the darkness awaiting rescue and I know that some of those people may not live through the night. They will spend their last hours or minutes saying goodbye to their own loved ones or crying out for help. I cannot imagine their terror or their pain.
I have experienced an anger that frightens me. The people who did this do not deserve to be called human and like the vermin they are, they need to be exterminated. Sadly, there is no punishment to fit this crime. To make these people suffer pain for a thousand years wouldn’t be enough.
I am an agnostic but should there be a God or Allah, may they condemn the pilots of these aircraft and those who sent them to an eternity of fiery unrelenting hell. May they be given pain on a scale a hundred times of what they have caused for all eternity.
I am afraid for our tomorrow and the days that will come after that. The death toll will rise by the minute and the hour and I don’t believe that the enormity of this horror has even come close to being realized…
Perhaps those people hiding these terrorists will simply give them up and avert their own destruction. Yes, you can laugh because I don’t believe this will happen either.
There has been many calls for war and it scares me to find myself in agreement with the President when he said he would hold the perpetrators of this crime and anyone who harbours them equally responsible. I too want justice but at what cost? War means that more innocents are going to die. More mothers will grieve for their children, many children will wait for fathers who just won’t come home. The pain of today will be repeated.
My heart goes out to everyone who has been affected by what has happened today and I wish that you might find some measure of peace in the coming days.
John Lennon said it best when he said, “Imagine…”
(((hugs)))
Feynn