A note; I chose the Pit as the location for this thread because it was inspired by polycarp’s thread regarding the suicide of a friend of Andygirl’s. I did not want to hijack that thread, but wanted to be sure it would be seen by Joe_Cool and perhaps the others involved in that thread.
Also, this entire thing feels rather complex in my mind, and I’m hoping it translates well when I write it down. Hopefully I won’t be too confusing.
Joe_Cool I am, naturally, in no position to know what has gone on in your life, what you’ve been through or felt, or how you’ve dealt with it. That said, from what I’ve read from you in these forums, I get the impression of someone who’s confident and sure of himself, sure of who he is and where he belongs.
I like to think I’m the same way. I’ve had my difficulties, just like everyone else, but from the things I’ve read elsewhere, I think that the problems I’ve been through pale in comparison to what others have. I’ve been depressed, sure, but I’ve never been to the point where I’d even think about suicide. Because of that, I don’t feel that I can make any judgements of anyone who has been at that point, whether they killed themselves, or worked themselves through it. I don’t know what it’s like, how it feels, how it’d affect me. Although I like to think that I’d square my shoulders and take it, I can’t possibly say what I’d do with any degree of certainty.
The question, now that I’ve been all long-winded, is… have you? Have you been through such hardship and torment that you felt nothing but misery and pain, and could see nothing in your future but torment? Where everything that happened to you felt like one tragedy after another, with no end in sight? If you havn’t, if you’ve been only through life’s little worries like me and many others, how do you feel you can judge those who have been at that point? How can you know, for sure, how you’d react if you ever reached that point? What you might do if everything in your life was pain?
On the other side of the coin, if you have been to that point, I wonder how you can not be more compassionate to others who’re dealing with the same feelings. If you have been in such a place, where death seemed like the only thing that wouldn’t be painful, how can you say that others in that place are stupid because they weren’t strong enough to deal with it? I’d believe that having been there would make one more likely to want to help, rather than condemn, those who are feeling the same thing.
Again, I make no assumptions as to the circumstances of your life. I just honestly don’t understand how you can have said the things you have when you can’t possibly understand the thoughts in the minds of these people, or when you understand them all too well.