1. Have you done anything to get medical records and how did it go? About 12 years ago I got the basic info: heritage & medical records of the family up to when I was born.
2. Have you had any actual contact with your biological parents? If you are familiar with my tale that is often posted here, the reason why I haven’t sought out contact is pretty simple. Whomever the woman was that gave birth to me wanted me to have a better life. I don’t think she ( nor my adoptive mother) would have planned or ever foreseen the travesty of genetic disease that has decimated the family I am a part of now. I don’t want to make her regret doing what she thought was best and really I don’t want to find out if they/she/he are living in a van down by the river. I also don’t want to hurt my moms feelings who has dealt with so much heartache over the years.
Everyone is happier in their own pipe dreams, IMHO, in this very limited example.
3. If you did have contact, did you initiate or did they? No. See above.
**4. Do I really want to know if I am prone to dying at 38? ** Being that I am 38 and other than migraines ( and sudden hearing loss in one ear) I’m fine I’m not dead yet! I know *exactly * what you are thinking about this issue. Will I get some nasty tumor/breast cancer/polyps/gout/whatever suddenly and most painfully? ( And expensive and not covered by the insurance company?)
I sometimes think that people who are genetically related get sick because everyone before them got sick. Instead of changing what happens or taking better care of themselves, they follow the same negative eating and living habits. Y’follow?
I have excellent health and have recently decided rather than dwell on the Big Fat Whatifs of life ( The genetic conundrum that us adoptees are.) to take a proactive position on my overall health. I am eating whole wheat/whole grain foods, juicing, vitamins and supplements, yoga and meditating. When I get a chance I walk, swim and occaisionally bike ride.
Do I want to meet my birth parents and any subsequent siblings that they have had either together or seperately with other SO’s? Yes. But I don’t want to intrude and I don’t want them to intrude on my privacy either.
I just want to find out where my sense of humor came from ( is it biological or enviromental or a mix of both?) and who I look like more and is it just me that is so scatterbrained or is it a family thing that I can blame it all on or a survival instinct that I learned from my own family’s ups and mostly downs?
But, I treasure my own peace, wouldn’t change a thing and it still doesn’t stop me from looking at strangers faces wondering…
As an example, I have been reading the very funny ( to me at least, YMMV) Enslaved by ducks by Bob Tarte, who is a writer based in Michigan. I’ve never heard of him until I happened upon this book. The way this guy writes and how he thinks is near identical to my own. It’s freaky…very freaky…especially the way he writes about putting the least amount of effort into things so as to save his energy for an afternoon nap and I thought I was the only one who did that! …and I did the math of his age and when I was born thinking…'I wonder if he could be my real dad…" but he would have been too young.
I’m leaving it to chance.