The cable company came by my house and were fiddling around up on my pole. I hadn’t called them, so I assumed they were cutting off my cable for nonpayment of a bill (and it was only a few days overdue). I yelled a little, then went on with my day. Later, I called them and they said NO ONE WAS OUT. There are NO records of anybody from their company stopping at my house. I called back multiple times, spoke to a bunch of different departments, and they all said it couldn’t have been them…but the van I saw was marked as theirs.
My husband turned on his cellphone yesterday and it was showing the startup programming (for no reason). Then it said, “Tracking Marxism” or something to that effect, then it finally turned on correctly.
My landline phone’s been acting weird lately, too - getting really quiet, changing volume constantly. It’s not the battery.
Maybe none of these things are related. Maybe I just need a new landline. Maybe I just caught the cable company trying to mess with my service so they could convince me to buy something bigger. Maybe everybody’s cellphone has something to do with Marxism. But I’m feeling really paranoid now.
The landline was first. But my husband unplugged it all the time (he works 3rds) and would forget to plug it in. The TV was second. I got mad and cancelled the cable (it wasn’t working well anyway, so what was I paying for?). Then I started thinking about it, and I switched to DuckDuckGo, thinking maybe someone was trying to listen to us. Then the cellphone thing, with Marxism.
Finally, my package from Kyrgyzstan hasn’t arrived yet. It’s nothing important…just some coins a cousin picked up for me in a pawn shop (teaching English over there). But it should’ve been here a long time ago, and they think it’s just disappeared.
Am I nuts? If you think I’m not, what should I do?
I heard you out and objectively what you are describing sounds like some kind of paranoid psychosis where you are quite literally starting to see or imagine things. If I can ask how old are you, what you are describing sounds kind of like the onset of schizophrenia.
I’m pretty sure that I’ve seen this movie. Did the cable guy have long, sandy blonde hair and speak with a German accent? If so, I’m 99% sure that it is called, “Logjammin”.
As a general rule of thumb, if you are sane enough to ask ‘am I crazy’ then you aren’t that crazy. Loss of insight into one’s condition is a major symptom of psychosis. Ironically, psychotic people can recognize mental illness in others, but not themselves. Put 6 psychotic people who think they are Jesus in a room together, and likely all 6 will realize the other 5 are mentally ill but still be convinced they are Jesus.
As far as OP, if you are being spied upon then they wouldn’t be so crappy at it. You’d never know you were being spied upon, because people who do that stuff make a good effort to hide their efforts (what good is spying on someone if they know it is happening). Unless you are involved in some deeply illegal shit, there is no reason to spy on you.
Is it possible your phone said ‘tracker not found’?
I know a person who, as her mental state deteriorated, was more and more convinced that a variety of people were messing up with her phone line, mail and TV ( she also became mistakenly mad at the various utility companies), before it evolved towards much stranger delusions, so while reading your post, it sounded familiar enough that I couldn’t exclude that you might actually be crazy (or rather in the early phase of a serious mental deterioration).
That said, the two people I’ve known who began to have delusions (the first mentioned above because of age-related dementia, the second, at an early age from schizophrenia) were both fully convinced of the reality of these delusions. The fact that you’re wondering would tend to make me assume that you aren’t (I don’t know how true is the common saying that as long as you wondering whether or not you’re crazy, then you aren’t, but in my very limited experience, it turned to be true).
Secondly, you mention a husband. Since it’s highly unlikely that you would both become delusional at the same time, and since he should be familiar with what is going on around the house, what is his take on this issue? If he thinks that you’re delusional, maybe you should get evaluated by a professional.
Also, I think the OP is a serious question, and that people should stop posting jokes. I guess they wouldn’t if the OP was “do I have cancer?” so they shouldn’t here either. Mental issues, even relatively minor ones, are no fun at all for anybody involved.
Nope, but I just googled it. However, even though a shared delusion is always possible, I guess that in the majority of cases, only one person in a couple is going to be affected, and typically a spouse should be able to realize that something is wrong in his wife thought process. He might in fact notice much more issues than those the OP is worried about. Because, well, delusional people are delusional, and tend not to realize how weird many of their beliefs and behaviours are. Maybe the OP also believes that, say, the truckers union is after her or that famous terrorists have attempted to steal her checkbook (two real examples) while not perceiving this as a problematic belief, hence not worth mentioning in nthis thread, while everybody around her would immediately categorize it as delusional.