Tomorrow will be 13 years since my mother passed away from colon cancer. I was only 7 at the time. Most of my memories of her are from when she was in the hospital 
. My family usually all gets together on this day, but my family basically fell apart over the summer, and now my dad and sister can’t stand to be near each other.
I also just got a great new job and wish she could be here to see my success.
Since we scattered her ashes from a boat, I’m thinking of going to the beach tomorrow and tossing a rose into the sea for her.
This must be a very hard time of the year for you when everybody is celebrating with relatives. That doesn’t sound much fun, I’m sorry you have to deal with this.
I’m sorry for everything you missed out on and that your remaining family is having issues. My mom got sick (well, she was sick for years unbeknownst to me) on Christmas Eve '09 and died 1/10/10. I don’t know how I am still going on – it seems hard to believe since I loved her so much. It’s a “new normal” but it is missing a huge piece.