It makes me sick to know what I’m surrounded by. I had a relatively high opinion of Republicans - at least the type that showed some degree of thought - 20 years ago. I did not have a high opinion of them 10 years ago. Now, I am utterly disgusted by them. Trump and COVID revealed them to be utterly without any sort of empathy, morals, humanistic values of any sort, or any attachment to reality. They are a dangerous death cult whose only desire is to hurt who they view as their enemy, which is anyone that is not in their group. That includes most of the people reading this post.
They can be convinced to believe anything, and do anything. They will literally deny the existence of a deadly virus, or even deliberately spread it, if they think it hurts slightly more of their enemy (liberals, minorities, etc) than it will hurt them. This is just one prominent example - they apply the same logic and same values to any of hundreds of issues. They are driven by spite and hatred and the governing principle that no one can have any help if it means that some people they hate (or deem unworthy) may also receive help. You can see this every time poor conservatives vote to cut their own food stamps and medicaid. They’re willing to starve themselves if it means that some poor minorities don’t get any food or medicine either. They only view government in terms of “hurting the right people enough.”
I feel disgusted to be near them, to be part of the same society as they are. I don’t lash out at them or try to fight them or strike back, I’m not spiteful, I don’t seek out their suffering, I just don’t want to be near them anymore. I want them to have no power over my life. I want them to be alone, where they can’t hurt anyone (except those that choose to be part of their group). I want to escape them. I know right wing populism is on the rise around the world, but nowhere in the developed world is at as aggressive, as stupid, as hateful, or as widespread as the US.
I have always rolled my eyes at people who threatened to leave the country as the result of elections in the past, but I believe that things have changed enough that this is a perfectly reasonable reaction to the circumstances. I’m eventually hoping to have a grad degree, and my girlfriend is pursuing a PhD - I hope this will make us attractive enough to other countries that getting out of here is an option. That is not a thought I’ve ever seriously considered until recently.
Things will not go back to normal. Things will never be reasonable again. There will not be some sort of mass return to sanity. Maybe there could’ve been - maybe after Trump left, the republican party could’ve shaken off the collective delusion, shook off the spell he cast over them, and somehow decided they’d go back to something sane, but they have not. They’ve leaned into worshipping Trump - literally a golden idol of Trump - and leaning into qanon craziness. They actually seem to be motivated to get crazier. They’re competing to see who can be crazier. This is not going to resolve elegantly or peacefully or without incredible amounts of delusion or hate or suffering or violence.
Democrats are incredibly incompetent and cannot fight off the encroaching fascist takeover of the US. And the next time they lose the elections, which very well maybe 2022, the Republicans will use their power to enact a perpetual Republican rule. There is literally nothing stopping them from doing this. Everyone is desperate and delusional enough to believe things are within the norms, and so they’ll keep telling themselves everything is alright, maybe ranting on a message board once or twice, as they just passively accept that this country becomes a theocratic oligarchy with very little pretense of democracy or republican government.
We cannot recover from the low we’re at now. It will get worse. The only organized group that could fight this, the democratic party, are spineless and inept. We’ve proven that. If they couldn’t effectively fight such a stupid, incompetent evil as Trump, they certainly can’t fight the more competent evil that is coming. The technology we use to control people’s minds, from Facebook to Fox News is only going to get better and more insidious and better able to convince people that reality isn’t real. We are already in a dystopian nightmare and it’s only going to get worse.