Honestly this rings hollow as an answer for me. It doesn’t suit at all. I have never felt that I had a job to try and understand anyone’s will. I have tried to understand because
I feel better when I do so. To me, it’s all about feelings and I don’t worry about being wrong. I used to; now I feel much better.
I don’t know how to really put it that isn’t blunt. I don’t feel obliged to do anything. I exercise my free will doing what makes me feel better and get me through my life and that mostly works for me. If I felt lost, I could certainly say that I would be searching for something because I have.
Once I had acceptance that my actions were made by my own free will then I know that no matter how badly it may interpret biblical passages I was making sincere decisions that did not conflict with my inner sense of morality.
Plus, the book that tells me what I have to do to follow his Truth is a book I am having serious doubts about the value of. A corrupted truth is not one I want to follow and the bottom line is if I have to choose between something that feels right internally and something that feels wrong told to me by an eternal unknown ( to me ) writer, how can I choose anything but the internal feelings especially as these are fairly standard amongst those who feel that they are following said book.
I know this bothers folks who feel like I’m trying to skate by with the best of both worlds but I don’t see it that way. I don’t accept the literal truth of one of those worlds. I’ve chosen to build my beliefs on the world I accept.
At least I try to be honest about it. I’ve been baptised three times in my life and I wouldn’t be turned away from any church that I would choose to attend and could fit right in but it would be a lie. A little white one but I don’t feel comfortable lying about my beliefs.
If the predicted judgment day happens then I’ll rely on the sincerity of my beliefs. If these aren’t good enough, I’ll take the consequences. Living by thoughts and feelings that I choose to consider important is far more comfortable than trying to live somewhere for eternity where I never feel comfortable with a ruler who I don’t respect.
I’m not sure how someone goes about changing their core beliefs to suit a set of beliefs that ill suit them. I’m sure it happens but my thoughts are what set me apart from every other flesh bag out there and I’m not ready to deny mine and adopt other folks thoughts as my reality.
The funny thing is if he exists as described I will be cursed for all eternity ( maybe ) for thinking that he is far greater than he’s been described and is someone I could be proud to follow. The irony of that should burn but I just find it incredibly amusing.
So, you refuse to believe that God is a dick? You’re going to burn in hell.
Ok, he’s a dick.
That’s it, you’re really going to H-E-double hockey sticks now.
Ok then.