A bit of background: in the 70s I belonged to a religious cult (best left unsaid which one for reasons that will be obvious…) for about 4 years. I was able to leave, on my own, and just went on with my life. Fast forward nearly 25 years, the spring of 2002, when I discovered an on-line forum of support for X-cult members. It brought up a lot of stuff that I guess I had hidden deep inside for many years, but it must have needed to get out, because I started feeling better about a lot of things after I started participating in the forum. Actually, there are two separate forums right now, and the forum moderator of one of them is the one who is driving me bezerk!
This person was in the cult for 20 years, a good part of their adult life–and many of the other participants were long-term committed as well. Not all of us, naturally, had the same or even similar experiences in the cult, and recently “brainwashing” has been one of the main topics of discussion. This moderator had a nervous breakdown not long after they left; they became convinced that the group was going to come after them, etc. The moderator is also very focused in on some of the illegal and (yes) illicit activities of the Leader and the “Inner Circle,” to the point where if you don’t agree with the moderator’s viewpoint, your posts could be subject to editing or even deletion at times.
I realize and understand what the moderator has been through–I was there myself, though not at the same level, granted. It really sets me teeth on edge, though, to have to preface almost everything that I post with “in my opinion,” or else worry that it will not even make it onto the forum. What’s even worse, though, is that the moderator is also very hung up on males “dominating” females – the “Baboon Troop” mentality (what the moderator calls it) and actually got into a heated discussion with several others on the use of masculine/feminine pronouns when discussing G-D. It’s the same damn story every time; my kids think I’m crazy myself for continuing to even read the forum, let alone posting on it from time to time. The latest go-round is all about slander/libel and being afraid that someone is going to sue for what is written about them in the forums! Have there ever actually been any cases of suits brought for what was written about someone in a forum online? Does anyone know?!
Well, if you’ve read all this, I must congratulate you; I know it’s a strange and specific rant, but actually now I feel better having been able to share it here. Thanks!