Sara,
That sucks…Ribadol (Risperadol?) You are on a LOT of fucking pills girl and in a high dosage…and it still doesn’t help? Damn…I don’t know what to say that will help. I know, I have been in that low, low, lowest of lows. when nothing and noe one can make it stop hurting and the only thing I felt was pain and more pain. Damn, I’m sorry. If you live with your parents you are obviously young. One good thing is that sometimes mood disorders are hormonally affected so if you are young, it may subside somwhat naturally as you reach your full adult hood. Even if you are a young adult, hormones continue to change even into your 20s so hang in there but I hope they find something better for you than that b/c I know on all that med you are not having a great quality of life.
Well, that’s the thing, kputt–secondary BP can be much less severe, manically speaking, then regular BP. That’s one reason I didn’t realize it was part of the problem, and also one reason he was initially diagnosed only as depressed. He would just have a bit more energy and focus than usual; it wasn’t anything extraordinary. He just became more hyper and impulsive. IIRC, that’s one of the signs of secondary BP.
UperCow. I’ve never fallen that deep into depression, even though once I was diagnosed with major depression. I do have problems with going to bed. I end up thinking a whole bunch. I’m not even sure even how my body falls asleep. I’m sorry that you have to go through that.
I am lucky myself to come out of my depressed moods, but I never got that deep (probably because I’m not in them long enough). Good luck.
Another thing about psychiatric diagnosis in general is there are no specific diagnostic tools other than observations and subjective assesments. Many times a patient will have as many as four or five diangosis before a physician finally settles on a diagnosis. OR two different doctors will disagree on diagnosis and sometimes it doesn’t matter anyway because treatment can be the same for two different disrorders. The best thing is to try and recognize your own symptoms, be familiar with y our body’s trigger’s and coping mechanisms, limits stressors (yeah right) and try to find what works best for you because everyone is different.
Hang in there UperCow. I used to be just like you. The compulsion will stop with time and help. Keep trying the medication soup until something sticks.
Best of luck.
True, mipiace. It’d all be a lot simpler if there was a blood test that could be used to determine a) what, if any, mental illness a patient has and b) what meds would work best for that person.
Wouldn’t it though. however med choice is usually trial and error, we muust just hang tight and importantly communicate well with the p-docs on this one
Sorry for those who can’t read my stupid username its just a thing my neice did with my pre-existing name: Deep Fried.
I thought it was cool and I am a proud Uncle…
I am not sure why it appears as squiggles and boxes to some. Sorry.
Very true UnwrittenNocturne, and if you can’t get a p-med doc that fits keep looking. Communication is key.
No, no, don’t be sorry, I thought it was cool…and even cooler that you are a proud uncle Deep fried.
Yep agree it is triel and error and is sometimes a slow process but sometimes it just happens and works wonderfully. My son was so tortured at the beginning of last year. Now he is a wonderful happy Junior in high school holding down a full time job as a life guard, got a tan, a car, chick magnet, living large, he is the happiest kid in the world but I would have never ever imainged half of it would have been possible a year ago. Just ook time patience and the right med combo.
A year ago he was angry, hallucinating, mood swings…the whole nine yards. It was awful.
Don’t normally post (a bit of a lurker) but I just wanted to take issue with something Epimetheus said ‘probably just Borderline’. It’s not ‘just borderline’. I’m borderline and it’s hell - it’s destroyed my life. I don’t know whether you know much about the disorder but please think before you post.
I’ve never met anyone who doesn’t at least claim to have bipolar disorder. Does it make you very irritated or very depressed that I find your claims suspect?
I would somewhat but then again i don’t care what you think i think everyone knows what they are and if they are faking thats just another set of issues. a lot of people will unknowingly diagnose themselve or say “god i am so depressed” one minute and then be laughing the next. Just got to stay focused on your own treatment and block everyone else out.
I was hesitant to take up the claim of being bipolar myself. It seems almost trendy, especially for us artist types.
But the more I’ve learned, the more I’ve realized that nobody who truely knows what bipolar disorder entails would self-appy the term. It’s a progressive, often fatal (up to 25% if the time if untreated), imperfectly treatable and all together miserable thing.
I’ve always known something was wrong with me, even as a child. But when I started crying spontaniously on the bus, and stopped being able to sit through whole classes without tears, I knew something was very wrong and did a lot of research. I also know what it feels like to feel “normal”- where you still feel ups and downs, but you can still function. I get that a couple of days a month if I am lucky. I really invite you to read back a couple months in my weblog- especially notice the near complete lack of perspective I tend to have about my feelings. Theres a post about the beginnng of last month that describes a euphoric episode pretty well. It’s pretty apparent what is going on.
WTF???!!! Except people who actually have it. I am candid here because none of you really know me. But oneo f the hardest things for me is telling people that I have this disorder. As a rule I just don’t unless it becomes an issue. My bf knows but only because he has to deal with it in a personal way.
You obviously have never lived with or been personally attached to someone who has BP. There is NO question that there is something not normal about their behavior.
I personally wonder why you would take it upon yourself to suspect others when you have no idea of what their situation or symptoms are. An I wonder who exactly you were addressing this to? :dubious:
Santa Cruz is breathtakingly beautiful- it’s got beaches and redwood forests and charming cottagesand a shining new downtown. It’s charming and walkable and has a shockingly useful and effiecient public transportation system. .It’s also a bit of a liberal paradise where nothing is ever that dirty, crime feels millions of miles away, and everyone smiles in their macrobioticly-fed, politically correct way. I live a couple blocks from the ocean and a beach over from the boardwalk (which is the only part of Santa Cruz that isn’t beautiful- but it’s still a lot of fun). It’s great. It really is a paradise.
I’m also completely sick of this place. It’s too small. I’ve eaten at every restraunt a million times. Everyone is rich and white and full of themselves. Theres no jobs. Theres no room to get ahead. Theres no nightlife if you arn’t a hippy. Theres not much of anything without a hippy. It’s like living in the most pleasent bubble imaginable.
I’m so sick of this place. I want to move, but I don’t have the money to do so. I don’t have the money to stay here, either. But the rumor is that there is an old Native American curse on Santa Cruz making it so that once you come here, you can’t leave. I believe it. I want bright lights and cities. And yet I’m still here.
That sounds just like Pacific Grove. Only we don’t have people sitting on the sidewalks every ten feet & that line a Jamba Juice doesn’t have 20 people in it.
The rich come to PG & purchase $4M homes near the beach. My friend sold hers recently for about that much she said they may never even use it! Its in my hood so I see it alot, it’s just vacant staring at the sunset…
I think UCSC was very pretty for a college. It seemed they didn’t keep it clean & the parking situation was tight.