I’m glad I’m silent. I know it’s hard to believe.
But I keep my mouth shut in most situations.
I can talk to the grandkids pretty well, they don’t judge.
(Well, the 10 year old might be starting to.)
My dog doesn’t judge. He just loves me.
The cats? They don’t judge. They convict, first and foremost.
People are frightening. As soon as you think you know them, they turn on a heel and throw crap on you. Like monkeys in a zoo.
No one knows. No one asks. No one gives two shits what you think. If you talk and tell them they pat themselves on the back and say, “Oh, I’m so much more smarter than you”
Then preach, push, slap you back into their submission. And boast of their cleverness.
Bigger person, my left eye.
Small people, small minds. I always say.
So I keep my mouth shut. I don’t have to deal with that.
I’m fine inside my mind.
Yeah, I’m telling that to the therapist this week.
I know what she’ll say, before I tell her. “Put yourself out there, Beck. The whole world isn’t against you”
Maybe, I just won’t speak to her, after all.
She’ll write in her book the same thing. Beck isn’t complying.
I’m a serial non-comply-er.
Any kinda therapy. It just rubs me wrong.
Yeah, I’m just fine inside my head.
You think I’m beat back. You just keep thinking that.
'Cause I’ll shut up. I’m good at it. Years of practice.