Just to begin a disclaimer. I usually only post on the dope these days as sort of an interactive journal to the changes I make in my life. Please know what you read is always a snapshot of a moment in time that barely encapsulates the entirety of my daily life with it’s ups and downs. With that being said here we go 
This is a very positive pat on the back post for me. Over the past two years since my big breakup I’ve been on such a journey. The first year I overcame my job anxiety and quit a job that I didn’t enjoy anymore with nothing lined up for me. As well I managed to lose almost 50 pounds, dump a friend who was really bad for me, and redirect my life in a path I wanted. It was a huge personal struggle but I eventually found direction. I even learned how to swim for the first time in my life (I’m 31)
On my 31st birthday I boldly declared on Facebook that “31 rhymes with fun”. I had decided I wanted to grow my personality. I felt that while I was very musical, my personality had major gaps which probably has contributed to the bulk of my life being single, as well as the collapse of my previous relationship. So I took up dance…which I fell in love with…and where I also have made over fifty new friends. I learned much about how to shed my professional “image” and just be a goofy fun guy to be around. I had a second short relationship with a woman that was enjoyable while it lasted…and which had very minor emotional fallout. I learned other people are actually interested in me!
I feel the biggest change happened this past week.
I went on a destination wedding to Mexico. The wedding was great fun. While I was there the younger people went out to do adventure expeditions. I’ve always very much wanted to do those things when I was younger, but I was too scared or insecure. This week I did it. Everything. Parasailing, Swimming, Ziplining, Snorkeling, Singing, Sea-dooing, ATVing, and best of all…bungee jumping! I’m scared to crap with heights…but I made the plunge and felt like I just landed on the moon. As well I never knew how to swim before…and I went out swimming in caves and in the ocean. I took on all activities on the trip and came out feeling like I was being the person I wanted to be for a long time. I feel like I’ve become a new person…maybe someone someone would even want to hang around for an extended period of time.
I’ve chosen to make character building, personal exploration, and experiences a higher priority than money, stability, and things over the past two years. It’s been a lot of work and I’ve shed tears, been scared, kicked myself, and have questioned so many of my choices. Today it all seems worth it. So I’m happy to be me and I think I’m on the right path. Thanks for listening.