Sorry full title.
So, over the last maybe 5-7 years, I’ve developed more competitive and defensive attitudes. This in response to a lot of stuff. However, is apretty big of a response to the fact that I’ve been very marginalized and very poorly motivated on. First off, I will start off I have autism[though not sure if the diagnosis is even accurate or not] and I also do have a bit of a learning disability so it might be no shock I sometimes have an idea of what I am saying, but I lose my process of thought on articulating a better way to express my thoughts out.
And like I mentioned, over the years I been pretty marginalized, bullied and socially rejected. Yes, I been working lately on empowering myself[exercise, building up my confidence, trying to get more outdoor time, etc]. But all of this, plus the lack of role models has led to developing a lot of low self esteem and the pretty big competitive personality I have today. Some other factors do play a role such as struggling with weight issues or just not fitting by some other standards, but yeah. Sorry if I am maybe sounding and coming off as a dick to you, but in reality really I am actually nice and calm and civil as they come. Really it depends all on the current situation and my mood. Sorry also if I sound a bit naive and akward-sounding on some topics.
But hey, is ok. Is all part of human nature and I am sure all people are competitive to some degree, but especially those who had gone through big struggles.
So, continue to welcome me in and now you can understand me better off as a person.
As for now, I am just trying to work on educating myself on various topics and world issues and just work on articulating my beliefs, ideas and worldview.
Don’t feel bad if you don’t get any “friends” in your profile. This website existed long before there was anything like Facebook, and the Friends feature was added much later. A lot of us don’t bother with it.
In the name of getting to know you better, if I could ask a couple of questions, please?
Where are you from? Are you an American, or do you reside somewhere else in the world? Is English your first language? Also, I’m curious how young you are, would you mind to share your age with us? Sometimes you seem quite young, but other times not so much.
You’ve said you’re autistic, ( we have other posters like you!), do you work or attend school maybe?
I’m just curious and will totally understand if you’d rather be coy about these things. These are just a few questions that your posts have made me curious about is all!
I’ve learned a new tolerance for the stupid, having discovered how many of them there are. And a new respect for the truly intelligent, having discovered that there a few of them, too.
I was born in Mexico, raised in Argentina for 2 years, raised in Mexico for 5 years and Texas for the last 10 years.
No sir, English ain’t my first language.
16 at the moment, at least. The registering age is 13, right?
Tolerating people is something to aspire to, as long as you do not tolerate bad or hurtful ideas they spread. The opposite holds true, too-just because someone is setting you straight on something doesn’t mean they disapprove of you.
But oh well at least people can already know what’s coming their way.
I know I been overworking my critical thinking lately, I just have a huge urge to be alert and smart. Also, my exposure to social issues hasn’t been this big since 3rd and 4th grade.
Yessir
But at least you guys understand me better as a person now, right?
And more importantly, I try to work on changing myself and my lifestyle. Been raised by mom only for the last 10 years already, but the problem is I keep lacking motivation and courage.
And my ridiculing/bullying/social rejection HASN’T been real bad lately, but is still sort of there.
I accept that the world is home to various types of competitive institutions and ideologies out there, so yeah.
As for my approach to forums, I am trying to work on practicing more self-control instead of posting all carelessly and feisty.
I like raising my awareness sorrounding various things. Is the only way I feel to be alert of important stuff.
I am glad at least I am telling this early enough before I keep posting, in a lot of other places I ruin my reputation and and my safety too early and quick. And yeah I been travelling the forum world for the last 8 years[well technically more for the last 3 years really], but yeah I am glad I doing this nice and easy.
So yeah, and even though I am autistic, I do try to understand the world around me[Which I pretty much mentioned]. I keep telling myself that the world will always fire up assholes and jerks of all kinds. From bullies to rapists to criminals you name it
And the lack of attention I feel from a lot of the lack of friendship and just attention itself from social atmospheres, is the big reason why I tend to crave it almost everywhere I am[Be it real life or the internet], and this is something I am trying to control myself. It will just keep ruining my character, self esteem and probably destroy my privacy too.
Well, I hope to still stay here for as long as I can. Not a bad community otherwise, you all seem more laid back than a few of the other forums I post in.
Well, the opposite sure has happened.
But, yes, it happens. There was a young man named Curtis LeMay. Like many young people, he thought he knew everything. His politics were a bit extreme, you could say. Over time he won us over…
I wouldn’t worry too much about your reputation here. I mean no offense when I say it isn’t firmly established.
Well I appreciate the response, and of course I am still a newbie. I think is been almost 3 weeks since I joined. Anyways,
But back to the topic, that’s fine. But I am saying this as someone who always is in an urge to get some slack cut off. I try to understand people’s moods and motives for what they do.
Better grammar[As if people really should expect perfect grammar from a messageboard]
Avoid political discussion?
Sound like a 34 year old working man?
