Not sure if this is the right place for this, but I’ll find out soon out.
Lately, I’ve been feeling out of touch. Kind of weird in explaining it. But its like I can’t concentrate anymore. At the beginning of the semester I was doing fine, had two exams in Calculus which I studied for, but by the third exam I couldn’t focus. It was like there was some kind of mental wall that I couldn’t get thru. I couldn’t explain it. I knew I had to study, but I just couldn’t do it. I kept getting distracted by the smallest things, which made no sense. I work full time also, so I was blaming it on my work, but I still feel there’s something not right. I’ve got finals this Thursday, and I still can’t study. I went from high “B” to an “F” from my 3rd exam, I’m now at “D” and need to do a 70% on the final to get a “C” in the class. But there’s still something preventing me from studying. Here I am, 1am pacifica standard time, can’t sleep and I’m not doing what I’m suppose to be doing…studying for my finals…I’m freaking posting on straighdope instead!?
What the fuck is wrong with me? My roommate said, I might be suffering from depression. I was like WTF? Aren’t you suppose to be strung out on alcohol or popping pills to be depressed? I don’t know what the hell it is…its just weird and I can’t explain it, even writing about it is hard, because there’s more to it…is this some form of stress I’ve never encountered? I’ve never had problems with stress. Am I losing it? I don’t hear any voices, will not yet that is, but damn I can’t shake this weird vibe.
Anyone ever gone thru this before?