Let me lay out the facts:
For the last 6 months or so, I’ve felt like things are messed up. Physically, I’m not feeling great - I’m not sick per se, but I’ve had insomnia, a little weight gain, and some pretty nasty mood swings, all things that are recent developments (I’m a 41 year old female).
Whatever is going on also has a mental aspect: I’ve been forgetting things like I never have before, and unfortunately, I’ve also been messing up at work. It’s very busy, more busy than normal, but still at a level that I should be able to handle. I’ve been scolded but not yet given any kind of official warning, and of course I want very much to make things right again.
This is just so not like me and I feel like I don’t even know myself anymore, and I have no idea what’s going on or how to rectify it. I’ve been trying different things, like organizational tricks, but yesterday I made yet ANOTHER mistake at work… so my efforts are not enough and I need to step it up because this needs to stop. I’m getting to that point where I feel like things are spiraling out of my control and the harder I try and fix it the more I mess up, which causes more anxiety, so on and so on.
I have a doctor’s appointment coming up so I’ll be discussing all of this, in case there is some medical reason behind it. I’d love to hear if this sort of thing has happened to other people, what it turned out to be for them, and what worked for them to fix it.