I grew up in Chicago. I was born elsewhere, in a crime free upper middle class suburb. When I was 9, I moved to Chicago. I was not happy. At first glance of my new neighborhood, I was shocked. I was a naive little white kid, and I found myself in quite a cultural melting pot, to say the least. It was Rogers Park, 1980. You learn things the hard way in a place like Chicago; it’s a tough city that will always call your bluff. It called mine, everytime, and I took away a great number of lessons from that. And a few ass-kickings, to boot. My teenage years were quite turbulent. It was at this time, I found myself at the bottom. To go any lower than I was would have been to die. At times, I came very close to that. It was also here, at this time, I learned some things. I guess I was always learning, along the way, and at some point I began to apply these lessons in life- these rules of survival. Along this path I took, I remember being a part of this city. Not just a resident, but a part of it. That city has its own existence, of which I was a part of. I used to be one those “bleacher bums” of Wrigley Field. $2.00 on game day would get you in, and you became a part of that crowd, as belonging as the stranger next to you. But he wasn’t really a stranger, he was a Chicagoan, and like you, he eagerly awaited Harry Carry in the 7th. It wasn’t about whether the Cubs won or lost, it just about being there. “Hope Springs Eternal”
I’ve since picked myself up, and moved on. I’ve created a good life for myself and my family. It’s a simple one, and I’m enjoying every minute. I’ll never return to Chicago to live, and that will be by choice. I’ve since discovered the pleasures of rural living. Not the suburbs, but real rural life. But there’s just something about that city that makes me miss it so. I did a lot of living there, and my life is richer because of it-despite the pains it caused at times. Every year, around the 4th of July, I long to be at Grant Park. The taste of Chicago was a truly remarkable event. Or any event, for that matter; Blues fest, Jazz fest, it doesn’t matter. All these millions of people packed together, coming from every walk of life, every type of backround, and it just seems that for those few hours, they all really enjoy each others company. They all got along, their individual indentities mattered not-they were all Chicagoans. I can’t help but think that I’m better off for having been so immersed in culture. That city has 10 million stories to tell, and they all have something in common. I also miss taking in a show at Second City, wondering if I’ll see them on TV one day, or eating at Billy Goats Tavern, hoping to catch Mike Royko. Mike knows what I’m talking about, he made a career of it. I wish he were still around, he can tell it much better than I can. I miss riding my bike along the lakeside, and up into the suburbs of Evanston and Wilmette, on the way to the ravines. I miss the aunthenticity of the food there, and I would pay much money for a Carmens stuffed pizza right now. I miss the summer days, waking up early to hear Jonathon Brandmeiers entire show, then lounging on the beach all afternoon and evening, drifting in the breeze. I swear, everyday in that city was its own adventure. I’ve been fortunate enough to visit all those museums, some many times. World class quality, those museums are.
I could go on all day, but I’ll end this thought here. That city taught me much about life, for good and for bad. I may or may not ever see Chicago again, and if I don’t, it doesn’t matter. My life is richer for just having been there the first time.