My father passed away and left us alot of money. We have been using it to fall back on for a long time. My mother and I have had long periods of unemployment. Now the fund has dropped to a point where we can no longer draw off it. Which means I have nothing but my crappy 6.25 dollar an hour job to pay all my bills. I sat down and did my budget last night and discovered that I will not have enough left over to do any saving for college.
I know so many people manage with a lot less benefit then I have. So why does this seem so hard?
All I know is I am scared. And P*ssed at my self for throwing away this money. He left it to me so I could go. Neither My mother or I had enough sense about us to go while it was there.
I am 22, and except for a brief foray into cosmotology, I have made no real step towards a future. I have managed to screw up my credit, my driving record, and my relationships. I haven’t been able to comfort myself with the idea that wherever my father is, he is proud of me.I’m not proud of me. And I know that if my father’s spirit is indeed alive and cognative, he is as mad at me as I am at myself. 