I know. And I know we have to do it. It just doesn’t seem right.
It’s like, I look at her, and know how much she loves us, and it makes me so angry. I know people have lost loved ones right now-people, not cats. But right now-she’s only a little baby, and she never did anything…now this.
Guin, I know this won’t help right now, but in the days to follow, take comfort in the fact that you gave Tess a warm, safe and loving environment during the time you shared together.
To whatever degree cats can understand things like this, she’s grateful that you love and care for her.
Fenris
That’s what my mom says-that no matter what, at least she was here, and she was loved and her short life was so good. Seriously, we are the BIGGEST Kitty Spoilers…
She really did have it so well…I’m going to miss her sooo much!
We had a one-year-old siamese named Elliot who died of a condition similar to FIP a year ago - his chest cavity filled with fluid and he suffocated. He started getting sick right when we had to move across the country, so we had to leave him with the vet before we knew exactly what was wrong with him. By the end they had him in an oxygen tent, but to no avail.
We feel like you do, Guinastasia: at least we were able to love him for a little while.
{{{{{{{{{Guin}}}}}}}} Oh god, I am so very sorry 
I’ve been in your position, putting down my cat just wrecked me. I agree with the other feline lovers here who think you should at least find comfort in the fact that she got to be one Spoiled Cat 
How truly awful. You keep us up on it as it progresses, you aren’t alone.
Guinastasia: i know you don’t know me or anything but i am truly sorry that this is happening. very similar things have happened to me in the past and even now it hurts deeply to think about it. i know that she knows how you feel about her and how much you care. they can sense these things.
i know you will both cherish every minute you have together as short or long as it may be. you can look in her eyes and you don’t need to say anything, she will understand. many people may never understand this but she will. even when things seem really bad i know you can look to things like this; this simplest, purest love and true hope.
i hope i don’t sound too contrived but your posts really affected me and i am feeling especially empathic right now. good luck.
I am so sorry about your kitty baby. It hurts like hell to lose a kitty.
I had a kitty die unexpectedly seven years ago. She was almost like a child to me; I welcomed her into my home before I had my first human child.
To say I still miss her would be an understatement.
Take care.
Sheri
Guin, I tried to post on the other thread, but it closed while I was writing. Hang in there! If there’s any hope at all for Tess, I’ll pray for her. You did the best you could for her and I know she must feel your love. I hope you know how very lucky she is to have you.
{{{GuinTess}}}
Thanks, guys.
I’m posting from school-Mom and Sis are staying home from work and school today.
But I had to go-I can’t stay home-I’ll go nuts. She’ll still be there, most likely-we’re going to give it a few days, since she’s not in any pain yet. But, my mother said if she HAD to do it, I said my goodbyes this morning.
Dammit-she has such beautiful little green eyes-golden near the centers, and a rim of blue green around the edges…it’s breaking my heart!
When we get the latest pictures developed, I’m going to make a site to her.
I think the other cats sense something-I picked Gypsy up last night and carried her into my room. Same thing this morning. Normally, Gipy HATES being picked up. She growls as if someone’s pulling her tail off. But she didn’t make a single peep. And she was very affectionate this morning-more so than usual.
I’ll be okay…I will. She’ll be with my Fluffy now.
About cursing God-I wasn’t seriously seriously cursing God. I was more like, WHY? And I was hurt, and angry. I know it’s not about God, and it’s a part of life. I guess I was just lashing out. Seriously-I was hysterical. I was screaming and hyperventilating, yelling at everyone in the house-as were my sister and my father.
Don’t worry about it Guin. Every rational, caring person on the board (and that’s most of the folks here) understood that you were upset.
{{{{Guin}}}}
Fenris
I don’t normally go for this touchy-feely stuff, but I know that it sucks to lose a pet. When my family dog Anna, died at 14 when I was away at college, it was a horrible blow. I still don’t know if I am more pissed or selfishly relieved that I wasn’t there at the time.
Remember that the thing that is causing this pain to you and your family is the same thing that meant the Tess spent her entire life with a loving family, and will die in relative comfort, rather than in a cage or alley somewhere.
Ladybird, Babybird, Princess and I send our hugs.
(Are there any dog people on this board?)
My crew of silly troublemakers, Julia, VanDamm, Katie-puppy Littlebastard, and Tigger, send good wishes and sympathies.
VanDamm’s kittens died, after only living for a month. I still miss them.
I was raced in the country and have taken care of lots of animals in my life, your kitty is obviously suffering, he doesn’t understand why it has to suffer.
Show some real courage and have it put to sleep, you may not like to hear this but I believe you should think what’s best for the animal and stop being selfish.
I sympathize with you but think of the cat.
German Shepherd (second, actually) Clare, doberman Rocky and rottweiler Katie. They all send lots of kisses (but Rocky is trying to hump Katie again, much to her annoyance, so I don’t know what value their kisses are). And dog food, which I doubt is of much use to anyone but them.
They mean well, but they’re kinda dumb.
I’m sorry to hear of your troubles, Guin. Feline Infectious Peritonitis is a terrible disease. There are two forms, wet and dry. It sounds like your cat has the wet form, with the fluid filled abdomen. In the dry form, you don’t see that. Cats with the dry form have a longer life expectancy than those with he wet, but in the end FIP is fatal. Treatment may be initialted, but it is palliative only. There is no cure. The vaccine for FIP is considered by many vets controversial.
If you wish to educate yourself on this matter further, find a board certified feline specialist.
My sympathies,
Michi, vet tech
sigh
If you read what I wrote, you’ll see we ARE having her put to sleep. On Monday.
I just hope and pray my other cats are okay…good GOD. It feels like a brick in my chest…just this huge weight…
This cat story might make you feel a little better about the world in general:
Ah…thanks, Chas.
Missed it when I read the thread, sorry for you and the cat….
Only had one cat in my life and it is still alive, but as a child I had a raven as a pet and believe it or not they make wonderful friends, It got poisoned by a boy that was a hired hand in the farm next to us it suffered for two days until I agreed to have it killed.
So believe it or not Even though I think that if this the worst thing in your life at the moment then you are a lucky human being I sympathize with you and your friend.
No other cat will replace the one you have if you really care for it, but you may find comfort in a friend or another cat later on when ever that time may come.
Ps. May I ask what age you are?
My apology.
Respectfully
The Unbeliever.