The past three-four weeks have been rough for me. I developed a bulging disk in my neck, which took the doctors two weeks to diagnose properly. I have been sleeping on a couch for all this time because on my back with neck proped up is the only way I can lay and be comfertable. Until I started physical therapy last thursday, I couldnt even sit up for more than a few minutes without some serious pain.
Of course, this all lead to me having some trouble sleeping. In the past weeks I doubt I have slept more than four hours in a row. I lay down and all I think of is how strange it is that I am awake, then its 4 hours later and im waking up. Once that idea gets in my head, im scrwed until my body is just so worn out it, I pass out.
Which of course has led my ever present anxiety disorder to rear its nasty head again. There is nothing worse for anxiety then being up at 4am and feeling like you will never sleep again. Which, while I can control somewhat, just adds to the crushing feeling of things never getting better.
I’m not taking any meds, simply because I refuse to believe that is the right answer. Nothing is broken, I just feel like im in a strange mindset.
I realise in the face of all the disaster, terror, and war in this world my problem amounts to nothing. I feel silly even calling it a problem. Having your house and life under six feet of water is problem!! Or trying to catch 20mins of sleep in a desert surounded by people who want you dead, is a problem. But still, I could really use a lift.
I would like to read some success stories from some Dopers. Just a tough time that you worked through, and were better for it. How you coped, dealt, etc… Anything you want to share.
Thanks for “listening”!
