Today is my darling, wonderful dog Buddy’s last day. (Picture from much happier times.) I’m going to take him to the vet in about half an hour.
He could probably go on in this condition for possibly even a few more weeks, continuing to decline, but he’s clearly miserable, restless, anxious, constantly walking (with great difficulty) in tight circles, falling down (and getting up, but then falling again), sitting up on his front legs panting. For a long time, it was just his back legs that gave out, but now it’s his front legs, too. I don’t know if he’s in pain, but I can tell he doesn’t feel good. His quality of life is at a place where I don’t see any joy or even pleasure in his face.
He actually started this decline two years ago, and for a long time, it was slow and manageable. Regular Adequan injections and acupuncture helped tremendously (miraculously, even-- I’d take him in for acupuncture when he was barely able to walk and he would be prancing and running when I would pick him up. Go figure). I’ll spare y’all the endless details… but we’ve come to the end of the road, I’m afraid.
He has been the best dog anyone could ever hope for. He’s always been very buttoned up, put together, and serious. I mean he had fun going for walks, but fun like someone who really enjoys their job. HIS job, of course, on a walk, was to pee on every single vertical object without exception, even tall weeds. I tell people that if he were a person, he’d wear a bow tie and carry a briefcase. (Whereas my other big dog Sweetie, is a princess-pussycat-drama queen. They are good dogpals to each other.)
Another quirk of Buddy’s was that he liked to groom my cats, especially one particular black one. She’d rub up under his chin, and that would be his signal to nibble and lick on her neck. Even when we’d take a walk and the cat would follow us, the cat would get in front of Buddy and flop down on the sidewalk, and we’d all have to stop and wait while he gave her the once over.
Thank you, Buddy, for showing up at my house in 2004. You’ve been a wonderful companion, and it’s been an honor, privilege, and pleasure to see to your comfort and safety all these years. I’m going to miss you so much. See you at the Rainbow Bridge.