First, a little info on my family and friends:
I live with: Mom
5 year old brother (Isaac)
7 year old brother (Jarod)
my SO’s name is Dan
OK, Here we go!!
My stepdad works alot and isnt home all that much. in the morning before work he works out so he isn’t even home then. My mom is a house wife. Isaac is in school till noon. So long story short, Mom spends ALOT of time with the kids. And that would be all well and good, if they weren’t psycho. Me, mom, and the kids teachers think they have add or the like. they are incredibly hyper active and can get very physical. Jarod bit my mom so badly once she had to get stitches and a tetnus<sp?> shot. Dave still maintains they are fine.
My mom is not very mentally stable. She’s been diagnosed with panic disorder and depression, for which she is on meds, but doesnt always take them. My stepdad maintains she is fine.
I have been diagnosed with panic disorder, depression, and a couple phobias. I was hospitalized after 2 suicide attemtps and a drug addiction last year(i just celbrated a year of sobriaty in april).
Dave maintains I am still fine.
My theory on why he does this is becuase he is a doctor and ashamed that his family has some major problems.
So Dave is never home, and when he is, he does more harm then good, namely to mom. He doesnt emotionally support her, and when she tells him she’s feeling depressed or needs help with kids or is feeling SUICIDAL he says, “just deal with it.”
So where I’m getting at is i have to step into some roles that i shouldn’t have to. I take care of the kids WAY MORE than i should. I have to make sure mom takes her meds, and i have to call her from school every day, usually once every hour, to make sure she’s alright. I’ve have to miss school, and have to go home from school alot when the kids are too much for her, or she’s feeling very out of it. I am very much being HER mom much of the time.
Needless to say, this is causeing me a great deal of stress. About every other weekend, i sleep over at dan’s house as to get a break from my family.
Usually i can handle this, but it has gotten very bad in the past couple months. Thursday i had a mental breakdown in school from all the stress. I recently had a teacher and a puppy die. I spent most of the day with the school psychologist and whent to dan’s that night.
Now here is where i need your help. things are not going to change. more than 5 docs. teachers and psychologist have told my parents that things need to change and alas, they havn’t.
I need to figure out how to cope with this. it has gotten to the point were i’m not sure what i’m going to do about college. it has been my dream to go to colarado, but my mom repeatedly says, “what the hell is going to happen to me when your gone?” and the fact is, thats my big concern.
so anyways… HELP!!!