I have literally been shaking all day. I’ll go ahead and say it, I’m terrified. I’ve let the cat out of the bag. I’ve told on myself. I’ve let out my deep, dark, terrible secret. Part of me wants to run away. To leave the SDMB and never show my face around here again. Then there is part of me that wants to go through this entire thread and address each posters concerns and questions one by one, even the posts that were either threatening or insulting.
When I got home from work this afternoon, I saw that this thread was already up to 3 pages. That was at about 4:30. I have just now worked up the courage to open this thread up and read what people had to say. I was certain that I was going to be tarred and feathered, then ridden out of doperville on a rail.
I’ll have to say that I am pleasantly surprised. Actually, the word surprised doesn’t quite say it. I am amazed beyond belief. Amazed that the majority of replies were supportive. Amazed that people actually took the time too look up helpful links. Amazed that there are people in this world that can look past the fact that I have an attraction towards underage girls, and see that there is a tortured soul underneath that hates what he has been inflicted with. I am not one to get misty eyed over every little thing, but I am actually crying as I type this.
The words, “thank you” don’t even begin to express my gratitude.