(palakaló, I lost one syllable but I actually know it right)
**DoperChic **–you don’t need to quit, you just need stress management.
Start with deep breathing.
Then, exercise.
IANAT (or P) so I can’t speak specifically to the subject of not wanting to tech – I’m pretty sure my lack of patience would push me towards possibly violating a few laws by the end of the first month.
That said, DoperChic, you sound like you’re feeling exactly like I have felt in every single job I’ve taken wherein my experience in the field started off at base level, possibly even lower. (Which is not necessarily to say that I had no knowledge of the field itself, but rather that I had no practical, real-world experience which, as the world ultimately knows, is the real education you get after your education) Starting a new position with new people, all of whom know everything you don’t, feels incredibly intimidating at first. Even at my current job, which I have been at now for over a year, I still feel as though I’ve learned quite a lot, but that the vastness of what everyone around me knows dwarfs anything I have to offer. My experience tells me however that the more I know, the more confident I will be at what I do, and that it will also take a good long time before I have reached a level where what I know exceeds what I don’t. It’s frustrating at first and for a good while after because you feel like such a useless gob, struggling mightily to do what others do with barely a second thought. The only thing that can cure that is time. It’s such a cliche, but it’s one with good reason: it’s true. With time will come the experience you need to handle yourself in a more confident, professional manner. You almost can’t help it, especially when it’s something you want to do. Given enough time you’ll pick up all those little tricks and tidbits from your fellow educators on the myriad ways to do all manner of things that will make your job a little easier, even more enjoyable, and certainly more effective.
I’m not really adding anything new to the discussion here of course, but another voice in the chorus (along with much more helpful suggestions than I can offer) can’t hurt.
Get out of my head, or start paying rent!
I’m also going to echo the idea that it’s true with any new job. I’ve been at my job for about 3 1/2 months now, and somedays on some tasks I think I get what I’m supposed to do. And then other days I ask stupid questions and I bug people by having to ask the same question 5 different ways. Or I do something wrong and they have to tell me to redo it. Or it takes twice as long to do something as it would take someone with more experience.
It just takes time to learn a new job, especially something like teaching, where you’re dealing, not only with the students, but also with the administration, parents, state/federal laws/requirements, and everything else.
My mother was a teacher for 30+ years, and she would tell you the same thing. The first day of every year - even after all 30 something years - she would be nervous and worried. But it gets better, and she loved it, and it will get easier for you too.
Another high school math teacher chiming in…
This is only my fourth year teaching - and it was very difficult at first - but I have to say it gets easier fast in leaps - I have such a large arsenal of “explanations that works” already, and I’m quite sure I have lots to learn yet…
I remember the beginning being difficult - for one thing you have to get used to not talking to peers anymore and adjust your language accordingly etc., but it really does become a lot easier.
And once you’ve taught a subject once, you’ll find you’re able to remember it almost by heart just the second time around - allowing you to focus more on how to get the message across.
Heck, some days I even leave the classroom thinking “Damn, I am a good teacher” (As in, today a lot of even the struggling pupils got the gist of this or that semi-difficult subject - or that explanation I came up with made it click into place for a lot of pupils at once…)
So hang in there, it gets easier fast.
-Tikster
I used to wonder what teachers did in their spare time. Now I know. You all post on the SDMB.
I just got home from a midterm conference with my son’s teacher. She told me that she’s been teaching for 22 years. For sixteen of those years, she’s taught first grade. I was amazed that she still had the sanity to string together coherent sentences.
Blessings on all of you who have the fortitude to stick it out. On behalf of my children, I thank you.