Quasi, I am about to tell you the truest thing you’ve ever heard. I am saying this with 100% confidence, and I hope five years from now you look back on this thread, because you are going to agree with me. This is the truth about your life.
You need a massive change in your life..
Yeah, sure, money, blah blah. Money comes and goes. You’ve got a reasonably sellable vocation, no kids or mortgage, you don’t owe money to the mob, you aren’t retiring any time soon. It’s okay to take a few risks, be a little irresponsible. You’ve got a good head on your shoulders and I promise that you are not going to end up broke on the streets. You’ll figure it out, and it’s all up from here.
But the life your living, dude, it’s not for you. Somewhere out there right now, there is a dude just like you laying on the most beautiful beach you’ve ever seen in some tropical country, cheap beer in one hand and cute girl in the other. Somewhere right now, there is a foreign English teacher learning a new language, meeting a bunch of awesome people, and taking on the challenge of starting his own English school. You could be doing anything right now- hiking the Himalayas, bring education to some remote African village, doing something exciting in New York or Tokyo. And then there is you- no different from them- in nowheresville that you hate. The only difference is that they chose to be there, and you keep choosing to be where you are.
There is nothing keeping you from the life you want. The moment you decide to do it, you’re going to get it. I’m pretty sure you know what you want to do. The only question here is how long you are going to drag it out with all this navel gazing, caution and second guessing. It’ll happen eventually, why wait any longer? Why not just start doing what you want now, instead of doing a whole bunch of what you don’t want. I promise you, you’re going to make the change eventually anyway. You don’t want to keep going like this. Stop wasting time.
School will be over by June. If you want to teach abroad (which I think is a good choice for you), you can easily be somewhere new by July if you start looking now. If you want to go to China, for example, you can basically count on being someplace by then. If you have a degree, it’s basically a sure thing. You won’t make enough to save much at first, but you’ll live like a king locally, be able to travel in nearby countries, and eventually you’ll start making enough money to save some. You’ll still be lonely as hell and awkward and all that, but you’ll at least have a good story out of it and you’ll meet some cool people and learn a new language.
Or, do something else. Whatever strikes your fancy. Now is the time. And don’t worry, you’ll make good choices and you’ll find a good job when you get back. You’ll probably find an even better gig than you have now, and have a bigger and better professional network. Sure, you are on a good path now. But you are on a good path to nowhere you are actually interested in being. Do you really see your life culminating as a small town music teacher? If not, go find some way that leads to something you’d actually like it to culminate in. And if you fail- well, they aren’t going to revoke your teaching certificate, are they? Even if you crash and burn (which you won’t) at most you’ll have a tough year or two and you’ll be basically where you are now.
Get out of there, dude. Someone has to live the good life- why not you?