I have confidence

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
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I don’t think i’ve ever really had confidence before. I feel really capable and in control right now. I think someone could tell me off and it wouldn’t phase me in the slightest. Here’s some evidence:

  1. I met with the director of Education today and was very well prepared at the meeting. I noticed he made the most eye contact with me which seemed to indicate I was the focus of his attention. My agenda was met, and I was satisfied.

  2. A girl is mad with me, and I have done nothing but be hospitable to her. I think it’s an example of me taking the high road (inviting her out to social functions, inviting her to play in our music group) vs her taking the low road (brushing me off several times, mocking me at said social events) Never did I reciprocate the negativity, and now she is isolating herself away from me. It does not bother me at all. Life is too short to dwell on this, on to bigger and better things.

  3. I am more pumped than ever to run this marathon.

  4. I am speaking more confidently and clearly.

  5. I KNOW I will be quitting my current job next year. I know because the financial security doesn’t mean much to me right now. I will find a job and city that suits me better. Anything less would be settling, and I am too young to settle. I will teach internationally, it does not scare me anymore.

  6. I am calling home less now, I feel confident in my actions and don’t need someone to reassure me I have done things correctly. I can judge for myself.

  7. Weight is under control and exercise is happening. I don’t drink pop anymore.

  8. I have goals again, I am not meandering.

I’ve always wanted to avoid having fake bullshit confidence that I see around me. I’ve always wanted my confidence to come from a genuine place so that I am the real deal. I think I am beginning down that path. I know my capabilities, and am proud of them, and I know where I am lacking and am making efforts to improve.

Yet another rant I know, but I like getting it out there.

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Good for you for taking the genuine path. It’s the harder one, and I hope it pays off in the end.

Good luck =)

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Good for you! Now the downside – some people are terrified of the genuinely confident (that woman you mention is a good candidate), and will do everything they can to ruin your mood so they can feel better about themselves. Recognize them for who they are and you’re still ahead of the game.

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You took the words out of my mouth. I sincerely hope the girl finds her way in life and doesn’t stay as negative…in the meantime I’ll share myself and my talents with others who are open to it. Hopefully I’ll empower them in the process.