I have much to get off my chest

[needscoffee]

Three years ago, you posted:

Do I Have A Chance At Life?

I’m 33, I still live at home, and have never worked. I am a high school drop out. My life revolves around pills. They are the only thing to give me meaning. I depend completely on my aging parents. I am quite literally ****** when they are gone. I keep suicide on the table for when that happens. What I’m asking is if there’s any way to climb out of this pit, or if I should keep popping pills and off myself when the inevitable happens. I could use a glimmer of hope.

You need to find emotional help. Raging at everyone else who seems to have it better than you can only make things worse. You need to work on you, not everyone else.