I would actually quite enjoy being a youtube blogger if…
I didn’t look like an evil paedophile axe-murdering rapist on camera.
And didn’t sound… well… I can’t even attach a comparison to how I sound. I sound like someone who makes other people cringe when I speak (because I cringe when I hear it)
The only creative part of myself that I am capable of admiring is the stuff I type on a keyboard. That stuff you can take your time with, and you can edit it too.
I look fucking horrible on camera. The lighting doesn’t help. The one pic of myself that I think is ok was taken in sunny daylight with an expression on my face that isn’t “miserable fuck” because on that day I had my bro and his family with me.