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Let me guess…23, 24? You’ll grow out of it. Or you’ll die first. Either way, in 10 years, you won’t be this miserable.
And I don’t say that to dismiss your feelings, I really don’t. But just to let you know that it’s perfectly normal and yes, everyone feels like that at some point, and it’s usually right about the same chronological point. If I were feeling religious, I’d say it’s a testing point from a god. If I were feeling scientific, I’d hypothesize there’s some glitch in the hormonal process at the end of adolescence that tends to lead us into a depressive state, probably one “designed” by nature to prod us into mating before our fertility declines sharply at 30. Sociopolitical, I’d point out that disaffected youth is how revolutions happen, when young people are finished or nearing completion of their schooling, but are just discovering that the world is not a safe place and doesn’t have a position carved out for them like they anticipated. Freudian, I might note that this is the true end of the Oedipal cycle, when you’ve moved into a state of independence which signals to your psyche that you’ve lost your mother as primary love in your life and not yet found a replacement for her in a lifelong romantic partner.
In the end, of course, you’re absolutely right. The world contains a lot of suffering that doesn’t mean anything. Life is empty and meaningless, and then you die. And when you die, people will stand around your grave sniveling for 20 minutes or so, and then they’ll go to lunch. And that’s it.
Nothing in your mere existence means anything. The only thing that could mean something is what you DO. What you CREATE. What you make HAPPEN. Want to ease suffering? Start a soup kitchen. Even after you die, if you’ve set it up well, it will continue to help people.
So create that. Create something that protects good people. Plenty of people do - airbags, plastic slides that don’t burn your legs on a hot summer day, lowfat potato chips… Create something that punishes the bad. Plenty of people do - law enforcement, jails, high fat potato chips… Create something that will last after you are dead. Plenty of people do - there’s this guy named DaVinci. Cool guy, I like him a lot, only I’ve never met him because he died hundreds of years before I was born. But his influence and ideas and beauty affect tens of thousands of people every day.
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I appreciate your kindness, but I resent how people always claim that bitterness/discontentment like mine is just a ‘youthful phase’.
Tell that to Schopenhauer, Zapffe, or Thomas ligotti (that last one’s still alive).
Unfortunately, I probably won’t be able to cop out and start living a mindless life of bullshit like the rest of you ‘adults’ did. Maybe I’m too smart, or maybe I just hate bullshit more than you do. Either way, a sheep-like life is not one I can have, unlike you guys.