I’m not sure I should care what you lot think of me, but for the record, I am not an anti-Semite, anti-Jewish, or even generally bigoted.[sup]*[/sup]
I am tactless, fascinated by absurd conspiracy theory, and tend to “think aloud” more than is cautious. More, “socially incompetent Discordian,” than, “believer in grand conspiracies carried off by easily identifiable minority religious groups.” I am really stupid, though, I’ll cop to that. Or as stupid as a moderately broadly read person with an intelligence in the top percentile of IQ can be expected to be.
I am very rude. I may in fact have an antisocial personality disorder. I don’t entirely care that I am rude. I can be an ass about prioritizing the denotations of words over how it makes somebody feel. I am learning that that is contrary to how much rhetoric is used.
For example: I think a despicable person who is brave should be acknowledged as brave and not branded a coward, that we may understand despicable courage. I believe a pitiable person who has been beaten down doesn’t get to be called “indomitable” just because we feel sorry for them, that we can understand that sometimes the sympathetic really are weak. And because I care immensely about language and semiotics, I am willing to be a giant ass about that.
If I seem scornful of common USA assumptions about the Jews and Israel, well, I’m a pessimist about the Zionist project. I’m not using “Zionist” in some code-word sense, but in its literal sense. I’m afraid that past ethnic arrogance and catastrophic policy mistakes have already set Israel on a path to destruction I wish it were not on. So I make cynical noises.
If I seem to seriously consider the crazy beliefs of “those despicable people” (whomever that is for you), I’m trying to see the world through their eyes. This is a trip. It is sometimes like the Method. It sticks to the brain in ugly ways. But I am smart enough to know that I am 1) smart enough to tell the difference, and 2) smart enough to convince myself of ridiculous things. And I am, basically, a lot more Harry Truman liberal than Adolf Hitler paranoid, when I remember my actual baseline of upbringing and belief.
I am also of 1)German (Pennsylvania Dutch, technically), 2)Anglo-Saxon, 3)some other stuff, and 4)dubious (very dubious, but not improbable) Ashkenazic descent. So, I’m descended from the people everyone thinks are genocidists on one side, & the people who actually were successful genocidists on the other. And I would have been an easy target of the S.A. if I’d been in Central Europe c. 1940–because of an ancestral name which is* very *stereotypically Jewish; and a general non-conformist lefty attitude, even when I was young & ignorant, and thought I was a “conservative.”
I don’t remember ever explaining all of this, because honestly, I prefer to be that anonymous guy. And if people think I’m an anti-Semite, I don’t care that much. I’m here to argue, to lose arguments sometimes, sometimes to play devil’s advocate. I’m here to learn some things.
If I drop the mask this much now, it is for two reasons:
- The only Doper I know in real life is actually a Jewish guy, and I don’t really want him weirded out if he shows up again by me having a reputation as anti-Jewish.
- I offended Guin, who joined not long after I did, and of whom I have always been a bit fond because we both have “guin” in our usernames. I’m not saying that makes sense.
Now, back to the general snark and assholery, starting with this post’s footnote!
[sup]*[/sup](Except against right-wing Irish-American Catholics, of course, whom I will never forgive for that “Social Security Trust Fund” scam. But then, I voted for Robin Carnahan once, so I’m not even a good racist there. :p)