:blushing:
Walking, I like. Yoga is a poison I’ve tried to turn into medicine. Sometimes it goes down easy, and sometimes it has me twisted up inside. Like today. I am glad I went because it represents a big box I can check off. But it still puts a hurting on my ego.
People came and took from my table of creation, though. As I predicted, seeing this made me feel a lot better.
See? You know how to take care of yourself. I try to remember that when I feel like I’m really going off the rails. We’re all mad here. It comes, it goes, it comes back again. Just be good to yourself and trust that it will not last forever.
We should all be so afflicted with creativity and altruism. World would be a better place with more monstros.
Agreed. Chiming to in hope that you’re well.
Best wishes from me, too. Monstro, you’re cool; I never know if that is because of your affliction, or in spite of it.
Somehow, it makes you awesome either way.
Perfectly stated. 
Are you getting something out of yoga that’s worth the pain? There’s nothing wrong with just not liking it. Personally I find much more spiritual and mental centering from lifting weights.
Very cool. Glad you’re spreading joy.
Beautifully put!
If I could find an “active” yoga class for people with neurological issues that meets on the weekends (and not the middle of the work day), I’d sign up in a heartbeat. But I have not been able to find anything like this. So I just try to make do with the class I’ve been in for the past two years. I like it “ok”, but I’m realizing that I hit my plateau six months ago. If it’s possible for me to get better, which I’d love to be able to do, it’s not going to happen with my current practice regimen.
But I still do it because I don’t know what else to do. And to be honest, I’m not in the mood to discover other things that I suck at worse. 
I need an exercise mentor, I think. Someone who will not just encourage me, but who will help me find something that I can do well and enjoy.
Agreed!
Monstro, I feel like I’ve known you for a long time based on your postings here, and although I know you struggle with a lot, but really, you seem like an incredible person with so much going for you. I hope you are in tough with people IRL who care about you and can offer you encouragement and love.
Have you mentioned your thoughts about plateau-ing to the instructor? Hitting a plateau in exercise is very common, and there are some classic ways to get past it. It often has to do with doing things a little differently. I couldn’t begin to advise in your situation, but it might be worth a five minute chat with the instructor.
-D/a
I didn’t think to talk to her about it, but maybe I should.
Please, Monstro, write down everything you’re feeling/experiencing and bring it along to your next doctor’s appointment. That way you won’t forget or let them intimidate you. You’ll have your notes right there. 
You will get through this. Hang in there!