OK, I’m better now. The funeral is on Monday, though one can only guess how that’s going to happen with the two feet of snow we just got.
I’m sure this will all start again when I go to the services, but for now I’m OK.
I’m so sorry. Our area just lost a young man in the service. It was his time and not your time. It is hard to understand why but your friend would want you to go on living. He would feel as bad as you do if the roles were reversed.
Keep his memory alive and grieve all you need to. You sound like a good friend to have.
Oh man, I am so sorry for your loss.
{Armchair psychologist mode On}You’re in the armed forces - you’re a doing, fighting kind of guy. This is one of the worst things that can happen to someone like you - you have no enemy to fight, you have no concrete actions to take, you have nothing physical to lash out at. All you have is amorphous, uncomfortable strong negative feelings and all you can do is live with them.
Hang in there, Airman. Remember that you have value as a person and that you have loved ones to help you through this.
I’m deeply sorry to hear that, Airman. God takes the long view and has His own deeply unknowable purposes, and some good may eventually come out even of what seems now to be awful, inexplicable and unfair. I hope you will keep your chin up, remember the good times with Shawn, tell others about him, celebrate his life, and do all you can to lessen the even more terrible burden his family is now bearing. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.