Yeah, I thought I’d actually share some of the crap I go through.
I come here, and read a Doctor Who thread at (:00, which includes a link to an old episode that has a bit of suspense to it. And only just now, as I’m typing this, do I no longer feel like I’m being tortured by some type of free-floating anxiety.
Well, at least it’s better than it used to be–this used to last weeks, and used to be a lot worse. It pretty much is the feeling that made me housebound.
I just get pissed when I was doing so much better as little as a couple weeks ago. Nothing I watched or did made this happen. And part of what sucks is that, when it does happen, you get afraid it will happen again, and thus it becomes a self-fulfilling prophesy. And that is hard to fight.
Anyways, thanks for reading a trip into the psyche of someone in benzodiazepine withdrawal. Maybe someday I’ll be able to do an “Ask the” thread.
But I do have the headache now. Blech. But, again, it’s better than it used to be–it was always a migraine that made me seriously consider self harming to get it to stop.
All right, one last reply, and I promise I’ll get a blog if I feel the need to do this again.
I’m still feeling it today. Not the headache, but the anxiety. All from watching a stupid video. That is so stupid. This is the crap that makes it so hard when I have to be at home alone. I really thought this crap was mostly over, but now I’m having doubts.
To be honest, it’s a combination of the headache and anxiety. It makes time move so slow. I get afraid that it’s going to be like it was, and that was as close to the biblical hell as I think can be described.
Good luck to you, BigT. It seems like you are getting through it. Just hang in there and be as patient as you can and you’ll feel more in control soon!