These last few weeks, I’ve been feeling sick. Not sick enough for me to stay home, but sick enough that I’m feeling incredibly crappy. I’m queasy, having dizzy spells, blackouts in my vision if I get up too fast, and am just all around not feeling well. First I’ll be shivering, not even just cold from the outside but it feels like the cold is coming from the inside. Then, when I finally get warm again I can’t seem to cool off. Although I may not be getting all of the sleep I should be, I’ve been trying to get most of it. But I have so much trouble falling asleep. I toss and turn and just cannot sleep. When I finally do get sleep, it’s not good sleep…it’s restless, light sleep that’s not doing me any good. I might as well just not be wasting my time on sleeping. I’ve also been depressed, and these past couple of days its gotten worse. I normally can hide the depression from others, and put on a cheerful front, but I don’t know how long I can even manage to keep that up. I don’t even know why I’m depressed! The medicine that I take to prevent my migraines is supposed to be an anti-depressant as well, but it’s sure not working in that capacity. I just wish I knew why I’m so depressed, and what’s wrong with me. On top of all this, I’m also having to deal with PMS, and I’m normally not too emotionally affected by it, but this time I can’t seem to stop crying. I broke down crying in front of my hated English teacher and my AP European History class…people that don’t even like me were asking me if I was okay. I’m sitting here crying as I right this, and I don’t know why! And I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. I was just lying in the bottom of my shower today, with the water as hot as it could go, sobbing and unable to stop.
I really wish that there was a magical spindle around here, like in Sleeping Beauty, so that I could go to sleep and not wake up for a hundred years.
Things aren’t helped by the fact that I hate the majority of my classes, and really could take or leave the ones I do like. Not to mention the fact that I found out today that my GPA is only a 3.55556.
So to sum it all up, I don’t feel well, I’m not sleeping well, I’m depressed for no reason, and I’m over-emotional. And that just doesn’t make a good combination.
I just needed to get this out, and none of my friends or family would really, truly understand.
We need our own support group. I hear ya loud and clear.
I’ve been having incredible problems sleeping, and while I think I’m over the worst of some of my mini nervous breakdowns, I’m still in quite a funk.
My energy has been sapped for the past year or so, and I can sympathize with everything in your OP. No incredible words of wisdom for you right now, but it sounds like you’re finishing high school. I’m in my second year of college, and it’s just as frustrating and stressful. I just spent a week trying to play catch up because some fuckwit in the financial aid department had me locked out of my class (online) and now my 4.0 GPA has been permanently marred by two incompletes on assigments I missed. If you need any help in your English or AP European history class, I might be able to help. It’s been awhile since I took them, but I think I did pretty well.
If you need to bitch, complain, or just want someone to talk to, I’m here for ya. My contact info is in my profile.
Please seek professional assistance, in the form of a psychologist or psychiatrist.
I’ve had my bouts with depression and anxiety, and also spent several years in therapy. It’s nothing to be ashamed of.
Think of it as an opportunity to open your suitcase and examine what’s inside. You may find some heavy baggage that isn’t needed any longer, thereby lightening your load.
It is understandable that you feel like your coming apart from the inside out, and that is why a compassionate clinician should be brought into the picture.
Please accept this heartfelt concern from a stranger, and explore what’s wrong inside. Once you deal with those issues, the GPA will go up all by itself.
Honey your depression sounds natural, you’re stressed and strung and dead astronauts are raining down and bush might push the nuclear trigger I am so fucking depressed too.
And what is wrong with your GPA? I’d say your kiccking ass!!but I sense its not what you expect from yourself. Take it easy you are are not alone!!!
I forgot to mention – if you’re getting dizzy when you get up too quickly, and are unable to sleep, one option is that you may be dehydrated. I got incredibly dehydrated a few years ago when I was going through some incredible stress. I was stuck at the doctor’s office for a half a day while they pumped me full of electrolytes and made me pee on a little stick. Eck.
Also, you may want to check out Talk About Sleep if you’re finding that sleep is becoming a big problem. I have sleep disorders myself, even though my asshat doctor thinks there’s nothing wrong.
Again, if there’s anything I can do for ya, or if you just wanna bitch, I’m all ears.
There’s no shame in asking for a hand, you know. Do you have a favourite teacher, at school? If so, talk to him/her about how you’re feeling. He or she may be able to suggest someone you could talk to - be it a school counselor, or a counselor who works for your district. A teacher could make that reference for you. Besides, it would also give you an ally you could talk to when you feel the world is falling apart.
If you need anything, my email’s in my profile. I’d be glad to listen, and help where I can. Just let me know… and hang in there, kiddo. But do find someone, in real life, you can talk to when you need a hand. Often, a third party adult is better than a friend, because they’ve been there, and they can give you sound advice.
OK, IANAD, but the feeling hot then feeling cold routine is almost certainly the result of a fever, which means that you ARE sick.
And feelings of depression can often accompany such diseases as the Epstein-Barre virus, or Glandular Fever in generic terms, and from your description, this one COULD be a candidate.
Get thee to a doctor for a blood test which will reveal the presence of such a virus.
Work harder and you can pull it up to a 3.86767. In ten years, or less, you will not give a shit. You’re in school, you should be out partying.
If you want to go to grad school later, be sure to study for the appropriate test. Don’t kill yourself for grades now and screw that up. What a waste of studying that is. Never mind.
You might want to head in to the doctor; you might have mono or something (I had it when I was five, so I don’t really remember, but what you described fits with the description that one of my best friends–who got it when she was 17–gave me). And, ah, that’s exactly what kambuckta said, I know, but it bears repeating.
Additionally, what you’ve mentioned sounds sort-of like how I’ve been feeling the past couple of weeks–and I know I have SAD. But that probably doesn’t help.
First of all, I really don’t want to go to a professional. Doing that would mean getting my parents involved. Being overprotective as they are, it would just make things worse. As to the teachers, I really only have 3 teachers that I even like. One is too busy and I don’t know her too well, one I really don’t want to talk to, and one would just end up getting over-worried and whatnot. As to the rest of my teachers, there’s much more of a chance that I would end up in a screaming match with them than actually be able to talk to them. My guidance counselor isn’t an option as I can barely stand dealing with her to get my schedule fixed.
I don’t have a fever. I took my temperature this morning…98.4. So I’m ok there. Also, my father is a doctor and I’ve been complaining about feeling sick to him…he doesn’t seem to think it’s any big deal.
The only way I was able to get to sleep last night was taking medicine to knock me out. I was so exhausted this morning and feeling sick enough that I didn’t even want to eat anything, so I took the day off.
What with the GPA thing, it’s just simply not good enough. The thing is, there’s alot of pressure on me from my parents to do better. B’s have never been called bad, and they my parents always say that it doesn’t matter what I get, so long as I do my best, but it’s easy to tell they’re disapointed.
I’m in a little bit of a better mood today; my dog worked wonders on me this morning. She just sat outside the door to my room until I opened it, the bounded in and hopped on my bed. She then proceeded to paw at my arm and lick my hand and bark softly until I agreed to pet her. She made me smile and laugh.
Thanks to all of you, It’s really great to know that you’re there.
Have you checked your blood sugar? IANAD, but your symptoms sound almost identical to those of a hypoglycemic friend of mine. You may want to have it checked out.
Ditto with the queasiness and dizzy spells. I’m hypoglycemic and have had some really fucked up experiences with it. I’ve had my vision go black-and-white, and one time, without losing consciousness, everything just turned black. It was like someone had turned off the light on a bright summer day. I don’t know about the depression, though, definitely see at least the school counselor.
Kyla and light strand, that’s an interesting thought. I suppose I’ll have to bring this possibility up to my father, who I mentioned earlier was a doctor. If he doesn’t know about it, he would know who would. From the article light strand gave me, I can see that I fit with some of the possible causes…I’ll sometimes skip meals and, especially lately, have eaten very little due to having little to no appetite. I also seem to fit the symptoms they gave. I’ll look into this; thanks.
Gotta chime in here with agreement; light strand may be right. I have the same symptoms and I’m a type II diabetic. Get yourself checked out, you don’t want it (if that’s what it is) to go unchecked for very long.
monica, honey can you eat something, a banana or some toast even?
a cup of hot, sweet (and if you can drink milk) milky tea would probably not go amiss.
you sound totally stressed out, and like you’re not taking care of yourself as well as you should.
i’ve been there,
what works for me is taking a day off by myself, turning my phone off, getting out of the house, maybe a little shopping, or a movie, treating myself to a good meal in a nice restaurant, buying a good book and having a glass of wine before bed.
not sure if that’ll help you, but giving yourself some time-out to relax can ONLY do you good.
anyway, please don’t stress about the little things, and if it would help to spend a little time away from people or things which make you feel bad, please consider it.
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