I’ve been unemployed for a few months.
What doesn’t help is that I live in the state that apparently has the highest unemployment rate in the nation, and right next to the state that has the second highest unemployment rate in the nation.
It also doesn’t help that I’m an audiologist, a fairly narrow field with only so many new jobs in that area to go around.
Nor does it help that I’m relatively new to the field…got my master’s degree in 1999, and my certification in 2000.
But goddamn does it have to be so fucking hard to get a new job in this field?
Today I just found out that a job I applied for in Vancouver, WA was filled a few weeks ago…the application deadline for that job was May 15th, and I sent mine in when the listing was first posted in February. I called them today to inquire when they might be doing interviews, since the deadline has now passed, and find out instead that the job had already been filled for some time.
Every job application I complete is met with total silence. It’s this silence that is so frustrating, so annoying. I’m sure that what’s burning me is my relative newness to the field, and that virtually every job I apply for has another applicant that has been doing it for longer than I have?
Can’t get the job without the experience, can’t get the experience without the job. Possibly the nastiest catch-22 I’ve ever faced.
In the last month or so, I’ve applied for jobs in Chicago, Detroit, Minneapolis, New York, Tampa, Orlando, Cincinnati, and Washington, D.C.
Result: silence, and it’s really getting old.
What was the point of me working my ass off in college and graduate school? What was the point of working my ass off in the internships and clinical fellowship, if only to be ignored so utterly when I was done? What, in short, is the point of trying? At the risk of sounding immodest, I’m good at what I do, but I’m not being given a chance to prove it.
I’m tired of this shit. Tired of the stress, tired of the insomnia, tired of spending hours every day hunting for new listings on the Internet, tired of being fucking ignored.
Fuck it all.